The Weight ↠ s.m [1]

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Valerie

"You have to listen to Shawns album Val" Laur said for the 500th time. "Like I said before no" I argued.

"Val, you really have to"

"No I don't."

"But you really should.."

"Tell me why should I?" I said as I sat up. "You just should" she said. "I'm going to leave this playing she said as she puts my laptop on the very top shelf. "Laur!" I shouted but she was already gone. The first song was an old one it was life of the party. I smiled hearing it. It was his first single I remember being there with him when he released it.

Then the second one came on

"I thought that I'd been hurt before
But no one's ever left me quite this sore..
Your words cut deeper than a knife
Now I need someone to breath me back to life

Got a feeling that I'm going under
But I know that I'll make it out alive
If I quit calling you my lover
Move on

You watch me bleed until I can't breathe
Shaking, falling onto my knees
And now that I'm without your kisses
I'll be needing stitches
Tripping over myself
Aching, begging you to come help
And now that I'm without your kisses
I'll be needing stitches"

The rest of the song made me angry. He was talking about me? He called me bitter and said he had to get me out of his head..? "Why" I whispered as the next song began to play.

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After a couple songs later, I'm pretty sure the song that began to play right now was the last one..his album is good..what makes me sad is the heartbroken songs are about me.

"I wanna go back,
Forget that it's over
Paint it in black,
When you left me alone
I never knew,
She was sleeping next door with the kid I grew up with,
And I can't go back to her anymore, no

You tell me you were happier with him, but you want me to stay
And you tell me that you needed time but you pushed me away
And when you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks
No, I can't lift the weight

Put you in the past,
Try to forget you 'cause it's over
And every time you ask
I'll pretend I'm okay
You're inside my head
In the middle of the night
When I don't feel right
I dream I can hold you,
And I can't go back to you anymore, yeah, yeah

You tell me you were happier with him, but you want me to stay
And you tell me that you needed time but you pushed me away
And when you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks
But I can't lift the weight, and I can't lift the weight

And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight
Yeah, you stand on my shoulders and my heart just breaks
And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight
Yeah, you stand on my shoulders and my heart just breaks
And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight
Yeah, you lower your standards and I raise the stakes
And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight

You tell me you were happier with him, but you want me to stay
And you tell me that you needed time but you, you pushed me away
And when you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks
But I can't lift the weight, and I can't lift the weight

You tell me you were happier with him, but you want me to stay
You told me that you needed time but you, you pushed me away
And when you try to take me back, say someday you will change,
But I don't wanna wait"

The guitar tune faded. I sat there in shock staring at the wall. This last song..it killed me. He described exactly what happened and exactly how he felt. I felt a tear stream  down my face.

I just didn't hurt him..I broke him.

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Girl why u do dat?