The Baby Blue Bentley {Russell Westbrook}

Chapter XII

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So what's fun to do here in Oklahoma?" Sean asked me, as I pulled my panties up my legs. I was still a little weak. I wasn't sure whether it was a good thing or a bad thing. The last man I had sex with was not Sean, and this had changed the perspective of everything. After almost saying Russell's name during it, I had totally freaked myself out. I was doing something risky, something really bad. I wasn't exactly sure what I was doing. I spun around, searching for my bra. He lifted up his hand to show me he was holding my bra. I reached for it and he snatched it back, puckering his lips for a kiss. I planted several on his lips, but he pulled me down on top of him, back onto the bed. I kissed him, then grabbed my bra and rolled off of him to put it on. "Why are you being so distant lately? And why did you call me daddy? You've never down that before."

"I just thought you might... you know, like it, I guess," I said, shyly. It wasn't even like Sean and I had been apart for that long, yet I was shy around him all over again like we were just meeting for the first time. I was acting ridiculous.

"I did, Monica, I did," I smiled and turned away from him, biting my lower lip. I really needed to change my persona. It shouldn't be like this—it felt awkward having sex with Sean, and it didn't with Russell. Why did I feel this way? I snapped on my bra and stepped into my panties pulling them up. I felt Sean wrap his hands around my ass and pull down my panties. "Hey, hey, now," He soothed, speaking into my neck. "What about round two? Don't you miss, daddy?" Yes, I did miss daddy. Not Sean. My true daddy.

"Um, I don't feel well," I pushed his hands out and pulled them up, grabbing a pair of sweatpants from the top of my dresser. Sean snorted and rolled his eyes, falling back onto the bed.

"Monica, what the hell is wrong with you?" Sean asked, shaking his head. "You're acting very strange and distant. I come all the way from LA for you to act like we've just met?"

"Sean, I'm sorry," I apologized sympathetically. I just wanted to burst into tears and tell him about Russell and I. But I knew that would never blow over well. I kept my mouth shut. I swallowed hard and tried to cool my burning cheeks down. "I... I, um... I... Have just been waiting for you to come here and it was such a surprise. I wanted everything to be perfect and I'm sorry I really ruined everything, I'm sorry."

"Hey, hey, hey, stop that," Sean soothed, shaking his head. "I'm still here for a while you didn't ruin anything." The guilt weighed heavy on my heart, it really did, but I pushed it aside.

"I... you're right," I admitted, slowly. "Sorry I seem kind of down. It's just been hard moving back out here and all, and I don't really have anyone and I haven't been having any fun." Sean sighed and stood up, bringing me into a hug, holding me. He soothed me and hushed me. Before I could even contain myself, tears were rolling down my cheeks and I had burst into hysterics. I wasn't sure whether it was that I really missed LA or because I had the audacity to cheat on the man I was in love with. I wasn't sure how my life had gone from being so perfect to so horribly imperfect in a matter of weeks. It was like everything good was slipping away before my eyes. All I could do was sit back and watch.

"Baby... It's okay, everything is okay, you don't need to cry," He cooed, rubbing my back. It felt so good.

"I just... I love you so much and I miss you like crazy," I cried, heaving into his shoulder. Why was I acting so crazy? I had no control over my tears. "I hate it here. I hate Oklahoma. I hate my family. I fucking hate this stupid job. I don't have any friends."

"Well, you have Russell, your sister told me you guys are friends," He added. I froze. Yes, Russell and I were friends. "Even though I'm on tour, if you ever need anything, baby, I'm just a phone call and a flight away. I'll always be here for you."

My heart melted completely at this and instantly I felt like the biggest asshole alive. Why had I let Russell get into my head? "My sister and I don't really get along that well. Russell and I... It's... It's just business is all."

"Business?" He asked, raising his eyebrow.

"Yeah, through the company. Just helping him with his finances." Not in sexual favors or anything outrageous like that.

"Oh, cool," he simply added, not asking me anything else about Russell. I just hoped I would be able to keep my mouth shut. Lying to this man was harder than I thought it was going to be. Much harder.