My Reason [NamJin]

Ch.5

I nervously pulled my sweater sleeves down as I walked to the bus stop. My last episode was probably the scariest I've had. The man was dressed like a doctor. He was telling me that everything would be okay. He said that I needed to wake up. 

Wake up? I don't understand..

What does he mean by wake up? I've never felt so clueless. After he told me I needed to wake up, he stabbed my arm with a scalpel. The more I struggled the deeper the knife would go in. Then he started to change. He turned into the black mist of my fears and started chasing me around. Once he caught me I started to feel like I was drowning. I woke up right as I "died". 

I sighed and stepped onto the bus once it stopped in front of me. I yelped as I tripped over someones back pack. Only to have people laugh as I fell. I sighed as I felt blood run from my nose. Someone stretched their hand out to me. Their hand had long fingers and was veiny. 

"Are you okay?" They asked. Fear ran through my body when I heard that deep voice. I followed the arm up to the persons face, it was him. His features were even more soft up close. Round-ish cheeks, plump lips, deep brown eyes, tan-ish skin. I gulped as I looked at his face. He frowned lightly and used his sleeve to clean the blood running from my nose. I flinched away from him, afraid that he'd just hurt me again. The boy frowned and leaned closer. 

"N-no..I-I'm fine" I stuttered and stood up from the floor slowly. The boy frowned and grabbed my wrist to help me stand. I pulled away. I slipped and fell on my butt with a soft groan. The boy sighed and took my hand gently. I gulped lightly and let him help me. His touch was just like in my dream, soft and gentle. I stood straight and looked at him. He smiled softly at me. He was exactly like my dream, every detail was correct. The hair, the lips, the skin, everything was down to the last detail. I quickly looked away when I realized I was staring. 

"S-Sorry" I fumbled my hands together. He chuckled lightly. 

"Do you wanna sit with me?" He asked softly. I nodded shyly. He smiled softly and sat down first by the window, I sat next to him. I sat my bag at my feet and sighed softly. 

"So what's your name?" He asked me, making me look up at him. He had a curious look on his face. 

"It's Jin" I said with a soft tone, too nervous to make my voice go any higher. He smiled softly and held out his hand. I took it gently and he shook my hand gently before slipping his hand away. I put my hands back into my jacket pockets. 

"I'm Namjoon, It's nice to meet you Jin" He smiled kindly, his dimples coming into view. I smiled wryly and looked away from Namjoon. Namjoon? Hmm.. I sat quietly while Namjoon talked about random stuff. I sighed softly and stood up once the bus stopped at the school. I grabbed my bag and stood up.

"Is this school good?" He asked as he followed me off of the bus. I shrugged and walked off. 

"Ask someone who has friends" I mumbled as I walked away and to the back of the school. I felt him following me and turned to look at him. He smiled at me and continued to follow me.

"Why are you following me?" I stopped and turned to face him completely. Namjoon shrugged. 

"I don't really know my way around this school and plus you're the only person I know" 

"Don't follow me..." I turned and kept walking. I heard him continuing to follow me. I huffed and spun around to him. He stopped walking instantly. 

"Why can't you leave me alone?! Isn't haunting my dreams enough?!" I shouted at him and ran away from him.

"Jin wait!" He called after me. I just kept running till I couldn't hear him anymore. I was tired of always being haunted by my thoughts. It was pushing me over the edge.