My Reason [NamJin]

Ch. 19

What is death like? 

I hope its peaceful...

My question was going to be answered quite soon. I felt my body being pulled through darkness, it felt as if someone was guiding me; finally showing me where I could find peace. To be filled with wonder, to be touched by peace. But peace seemed so far away. Wandering endlessly down a dark hallway, looking for anything to give you the small flicker in your heart; thinking you might just make it through the night without shedding a tear. 

I was beginning to lose myself in the darkness. My mind racing as my body was pulled into a random direction. Water began to fall from no where, soaking me and my clothing. I closed my eyes, letting the water wash over me. I opened my eyes, water dripping from my eyelashes. I continued to walk forward. A strong force in my gut erupted, making my insides twist and spin. 

So dark, too deep. Light is easy to love, only the strong can battle the darkness they hold inside them. 

I continued to walk, looking for anything to make me feel a sense of hope inside myself. I walked around aimlessly, wanting needing to find something to take me away from the pain of life. I cleaned some water from my cheek and looked around. 

The crushing reality hit me, this was death. Crumbling to the ground, hanging your head. Broken sobs escaping past the pants of trying to breath. Tears falling, landing on the cold ground without a sound, making a small puddle to see your reflection. Only to cry more. 

Curling into a ball, hiding away from all the pain. 

This was the darkness, and I was in it. So darkness I became.