My Reason [NamJin]

Ch.11

Depressing and "Mature" content. Don't read if you are sensitive to this matter

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I stared down at my hands. Blood leaked through my fingers and dripped onto the floor. I looked up slowly. Namjoon was standing a few feet away from me. He held the knife in his hand, blood leaked down the shiny metal. Namjoon examined the blade before looking my way. I stared at him with blank eyes. 

"Why...?" I asked, my voice cracking. Namjoon shrugged and tossed the knife aside. It fell to the floor with a loud clinking sound. Namjoon started to fall apart piece by piece, like glass from a broken mirror. Once the pieces hit the floor they started to melt and ooze across the floor. I looked around. More doctors evil looking instruments surrounded me. 

They jabbed me with needles and shoved pills down my throat. I gagged on them and tried to pull free. I fell back and landed in water. I tried to surface, but I couldn't. Water began to fill my lungs. I thrashed around as I tried to get out of the water. I was suddenly thrown from the water. I felt like I was thrown through glass. Sharp burning pains erupted from my torso. I winced in pain and held my stomach. I looked up, I was back in the mental hospital. 

I struggled to get up onto my feet. I heard cries in the distance. I walked out of the room, monsters and random scary things were walking through the halls. The crying got louder and more sad, it was full of pain and fear. I exited the room and started to walk around the halls. Each person in the rooms had their own demons haunting them. They screamed at the person and yelled at them. Most talking about how they'll never be normal or they were a waste. Each person cowarded away from the demon and cried. 

I entered a room. I saw myself curled into a ball onto the floor and crying. My demon standing over me, it was Namjoon. He was calling me names and saying that I wasn't good enough. I cried harder and begged Namjoon to stop. He continued to insult me and say mean things to me. 

"Just kill yourself!" He hissed. He threw a razor down at me before walking out of the room. I lifted my head off the floor, and looked over at me. I didn't have eyes. Just black holes leaking blood onto my cheeks. I walked backwards away from myself. I tripped and fell backwards. Darkness surrounded me. I landed against the ground with a loud crash. I opened my eyes. 

I was staring at Namjoon, he had wide eyes. I flinched back away from him.

"Jin? Are you okay?!" He asked, sounding panicked. I shook my head quickly, I couldn't find my voice. Namjoon pulled me in for a tight hug. I hugged back weakly. I felt the tears roll down my cheeks more, but no sobs came from my mouth. My tears began to soak Namjoons shirt. He hushed and cooed to me to calm me down, it didn't really help. It just made me cry more. 

They're getting worse...