My Reason [NamJin]

Ch.8

Me and Namjoon walked down the street quietly. No words said, no looks being exchange, just quiet walking. Namjoon still hasn't asked about the bathroom and I'm glad he hasn't. Just the thought of explaining how I'm technically insane is enough to make me sick to my stomach. It made my stomach flip and spin. 

I sighed as we walked to the back of the school. I sat in my normal spot. Namjoon sat next to me. I looked down at my hands and twiddled my fingers as I chewed on my bottom lip nervously. Namjoon just sat quietly, not saying anything. 

"You're curious about earlier huh?" I asked quietly. 

"That's none of my business, I'm not gonna make you feel like you have to tell me. Everyone has their moments" He replied. I nodded slightly and closed my eyes. Namjoon let out a soft yawn, I peeked at him through my hair. He was rubbing his eyes as he yawned. I smiled to myself and looked down. I saw Namjoon reach over and grab my hand gently. I blushed lightly and looked at him, he was also blushing. I held his hand with a limp grip. Namjoon smiled softly. I smiled back and looked back down. 

His presence alone was comforting. Even though I don't know him that well or if he's real for that matter, it's still nice to have someone here for me when I need them. Namjoon rubbed his thumb across the back of my hand soothingly, making me smile in return. 

"Are you okay though?" He asked with a soft tone. I nodded softly and stared down at our hands, our fingers slowly intertwined. I smiled slightly more and looked up at him, he smiled back at me. 

"I calmed down after you arrived...it's like they're scared of you" I whispered the last part to myself. 

"It's nice knowing that I can help you, with whatever I helped you with" He chuckled softly. I laughed for the first time in forever, my laugh sounded weird. It sounded deep ad raspy. I sighed softly and leaned back against the building. Namjoon watched me silently. 

***

Namjoon had stuck by my side the whole day, even when getting off of the bus. He walked me to my house, our hands still interlocked. He had a firm but soft grip on my hand. I held onto his hand like it was the last thing keeping me on this earth, although I wouldn't mind letting go and disappearing. 

We walked up to my front door quietly. I purposely walked slower just so I had a few more minutes with him. He stuck by my side and didn't walk away. I sighed as we stopped in front of my front door. I stared at our hands for a moment before looking up. Our eyes met for a moment. I shied away and looked back our hands, it somehow calmed me. 

"I guess this is goodbye, at least until tomorrow" He said softly. I didn't respond, I only nodded. Namjoon pulled me into his arms for a soft hug. I slowly hugged back, then hugged him closer. It's been so long since I had a hug this comforting. 

"I'll see you tomorrow Jin" He said into my hair, giving my slight goosebumps. 

"Bye Namjoon" I nearly whispered and pulled away. Namjoon stroked my cheek and smiled as I blushed. He waved as he started to walk away from my house. I clutched my bag strap in my hand before turning and walking inside my house. I dragged myself upstairs to go do my homework. 

I'll see you tomorrow Namjoon, hopefully I won't be a mess from tonight.