Unexplainable (PTV fanfiction)

Break Your Little Heart

Tony POV

"I'm glad you came" Blade said letting me in. Then I followed her to the living room, bringing back memories. 

"This is going to be quick well I at least hope" I mumbled. 

"What?" She asks turning around. Blade sat on the couch.

"Nothing so I wanted to talk to you" I said sitting next to her. 

"Oh no" she covers her face, knowing what's coming.

"We should break up" I said slowly. I convinced myself if I say slowly then time would go faster and Vic, Jaime, or Mike tell me we have practice so I don't have to do this, but I knew I had to do this at some point. 

"No, no we can work this out" she began to cry. Her face was red, tears were coming out and I just wanted to hug her and make her feel better, but I knew that would make it even more painful.

"You kissed a stranger, how can that be worked out?" I asked holding myself back.

"You kissed Alex when we were dating" she said standing up. I was in shocked that she knew about that. "You thought I walked in when you were done kissing her, no, I was there for the whole thing waiting for you to let go, but Alex had to remind you that you were with me." She was sad and angry at that. We both break each other's hearts.

"That's why we should break up so we don't have to break each other's heart anymore. I'm tired of us fucking up and breaking up and getting back together." I said.

"Tony, I love you and I don't want to lose you. This time it's going to be different. I'm not going to fuck up and we'll try to make this relationship work together. Don't you love me?" She cries on my shoulder and I make a gap between us.

"Blade, we should just break up because I want you to be happy and I want to be happy." My voice cracks. I wanted to cry, but I held my tears back. I just wanted to say I love you a million times while holding her, but I couldn't, not this time. 

"I'm happy being with you" she says as more tears are going down her face. "You promised me that we'll be forever and that no one will ever separate us. You said that you'll die if we got separated. Was that some lie so you can get in my pants? Do you say that to every girl that you like?" I wiped my tears and held my hand. I let go because I do't deserve her not after this.

"It's over and I don't want to talk about it anymore" I quietly said walking out the door and Blade hugs me.

"Please don't do this, you're the person that gives me hope" she says as some tears stain my shirt.

"Bye Blade" I get her off me. I could hear her crying as I walk out. I look at the wheel processing everything that just happened. Memories from the past rushed in my mind knowing what I just lost, the person that was the only person that I loved but this was for the best. Our relationship was broken even before we knew it was. It wasn't a mistake, it never was.

Vic POV

"I'm sorry about yesterday" Alex says.

"I should be sorry, I shouldn't have said that" I said.

"I understand I would be scared too if I had a kid." She says as I grab her hands.

"If we had a kid together I would be terrified" she pulls away. Alex really needs to let me finish. "Let me finish, I would be terrified because I don't want to mess up and ruin everything. I don't want our kid to grow up hating their dad because I'm touring a lot and a bad parent."

"I think you'll make a good parent and we'll come to your shows. You don't think I'll feel like that too. If we have a kid together, we'll find a way to be good parents while doing what we do." She cups my cheeks.