I Don't Love You

Chapter Eleven

I Don't Love You

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CHAPTER ELEVEN

Alicia's POV

I pulled away from Ray, trying not to cry. He looked just as shocked as I felt, if not more. I wasn't trying to lead him on. I knew that I would always pick Mikey. But... He was going to walk away. He wasn't going to come back. I had to do something to get him to stay, at least for a little while. He was my best friend and there was no way that I was going to lose him.

He was still staring blankly at me in shock. All I did was wrap my arms around him and cry into his shoulder. That's all I could do. "I'm sorry Ray" I whispered. He pushed me back a little and looked into my eyes. "I know. I understand." "No... you can't leave Ray. We... we can't be together, but you can't leave. I know how selfish I sound, but I can't lose you. Your my best friend." "Can you be selfish forever so that I never have a reason to walk away?" he asked, smiling slightly. I nodded and hugged him again.

We sat down again and talked for hours. We talked about everything- from the baby to Ray promising that he was done with the drugs and alcohol. Eventually we began to walk back towards the hospital.

As we walked into the parking lot, I saw a crumpled figure laying on the ground shaking, with people surrounding him. "MIKEY!" I screamed, running towards him faster than I thought I could run. I heard Ray's footsteps behind me. I pushed someone- who I recognized by the hair as Gerard- and dropped to the ground beside Mikey. I started sobbing when I heard what he was whispering to himself, over and over. "Alicia. Alicia please don't leave me. I love you. So so much. Please" he whispered, his eyes closed and the tears rolling down his cheeks as he rocked back and forth on the pavement. I was nearly sick to my stomach when I realized that I did this. It was me. It's because of me he's so broken. If for once in my life I faced my problems instead of running away from them, Mikey wouldn't be feeling so bad. He thought I was going to leave him!

"Mikey. Mikey!" I whispered to him. "It's me baby. I'm here." He slowly opened his eyes and stared at me. He jumped bolt upright. "ALICIA!" he cried, throwing his arms around me. "I thought you left me. I thought you were dead. I though I was never going to see you again. All of a sudden I just wanted to die. I don't care about anything if I don't have you" he softly sobbed. "Mikey, I'm so sorry. So so sorry. I wasn't thinking when I ran. I never considered how much you would worry. You know that I would never leave you. Ever. You are my everything, I need you to feel like life is worth living. I'm so sorry I hurt you." I pushed him off of me and pressed my lips softly to his. He pulled away and wrapped his arms around my shoulders. "Are you okay?" he asked somewhat nervously. "I'm fine. Ray saw me from his hospital room and followed me. We talked through everything. Everything is going to be okay again" I said, hoping it sounded more convincing than I thought it did. I knew that things would never be the same between Mikey and Ray. But I hoped that everything could go back to being somewhat normal. "Ray's here?" Mikey asked, interrupting my thoughts. I nodded. Mikey looked around the small crowd of people who were standing around us in the parking lot. He saw Ray and motioned for him to come closer. Ray looked somewhat afraid, but came to stand in front of Mikey and I. Mikey stood up, pulling me up with him. He let go of me and gave Ray a hug. Ray looked shocked. "Thank you for taking care of her" he whispered. Ray just smiled. "So we're cool?" Mikey asked Ray. "I hope so" Ray replied. Gerard, LynZ, Frank and Jamia all awed at us. "Can we go home now?" I asked, taking Mikey's hand. He nodded and began to walk, but turned to face Ray after a moment. "One thing. She's mine" he said, giggling.

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Hey guys! Sorry I haven't uploaded for a few days, I've just been super busy. It's kinda short, but it's midnight, I have school tomorrow and I'm way over tired. I'll try to do a longer/more interesting update tomorrow, but no promises.

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