I Don't Love You

Chapter Twelve

I Don't Love You

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CHAPTER TWELVE

Ray's POV

Mikey turned back to face me and said "She's mine", giggling.

I just nodded, but inside I was dying. How could I forget she's yours? I see it everyday. If I could have just realized earlier on that my feeling were so strong, things would be different.

LynZ and Jamia got into the car that they had brought, and I climbed into the back of the van with Frank and Gerard. Mikey and Alicia were up front. The ride seemed long, the silence somewhat awkward. Mikey sat in the passenger seat holding one of Alicia's hands, shaking from the shock.

We pulled into the driveway. LynZ and Jamia had beat us home. They had gone to Jamia's parents place to pick up the kids before coming home and they still managed to beat us. Bandit, Cherry and Lily all came running over to greet me yelling "Uncle Ray! Uncle Ray!" and wrapping their small arms around my legs. If things had of been different, these could be my kids running at me yelling daddy instead of uncle Ray. I glanced at Alicia's small baby bump. That could've been my baby. That was until I messed up my future.

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The night passed slowly and uneventfully. Mikey clung to Alicia. He was still shaking. I felt awful seeing him like that, knowing that I caused all the problems between him and Alicia, but I couldn't hold it in any longer. I had to tell her and I did. Maybe it wasn't the outcome I had dreamed about every night for weeks, but at least she is still in my life.

I stared blankly at whatever was on tv. I just want to go to sleep, to let the pain subside for a few short hours. I glanced at my watch and saw that it was 10:00. Time to make a break for it. I stood up and stretched. I faked a yawn and 'tiredly' said "I gotta get some sleep. Night guys." I assume that Gerard and Frank and their wives and kids were spending the night, because Cherry, Lily and Bee were all passed out on the pull out couch.

I entered my room and lay down on the bed. I grabbed my iPod and cranked up Slipknot, letting it drown out my thoughts of Alicia and put me into a restless sleep.

Alicia's POV

Ray just went to bed. I think he's still really upset. But I don't blame him. Mikey clung to my hand, shaking still. I squeezed his hand and pulled him up with me as I stood. "Come on Mikes, time for bed" I said softly, trying to make eye contact with him. All night he had been staring blankly at the ground, while Ray stared blankly at the tv. Mikey just mumbled an 'alright' and started walking. Gee just nodded at me as I passed with Mikey, everyone els was too caught up in the show on tv to notice we were leaving.

I dragged Mikey into the bedroom and sat him down on the bed. I placed my fingers under his chin and tilted his head upwards. "Mikey, look at me" is whispered to him. He listened, his eyes gazing into mine, full of love and trust, but also full of hurt and fear. "I love you" I told him. Before he could respond, I crashed my mouth down on his.

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Hey guys. So I know it's kinda short. And poorly written. But I just wanted to rewrite it quickly after being so stupid. So here it is. Xoxo

-Cass