I Don't Love You

Chapter Fifteen

I Don't Love You

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CHAPTER FIFTEEN

Christa's POV (A/N OMG I KNOW!)

I went through that night in my head again. Same as I do everyday. What did I do to myself? What did I do to him? It's true that I originally was just using Ray for his money. But now... now I think I realized my real mistake. I actually love him. After all of the horrible things I said to him in the weeks prior to me leaving, I finally realize that I do love him. I think once you've spent so much time together, you can't not have some feelings. He gave me his everything, and all I gave him was goodbye. It's too late for us to be together now, and I understand that. But he has a right to know.....

I have to go tell him. In person. Not on the phone, where he can just hang up. He's not going to get away that easily. I realize that I've probably caused him a lot of pain, but I have to tell him. It's only fair.

I got in my car and drove the all-too familiar road and into the driveway. Frank and Gee's cars were here too. I took a final deep breath and knocked on the door. No answer. I knocked again. Still no answer. I could hear faint voices, probably coming from further into the house. I pushed open the door and walked inside.

I glanced around the front hall, the memories fresh in my mind. I could hear the voices coming from one of the bedrooms. I entered slowly, very nervous.

I gasped at the sight before my eyes. Mikey with his arms wrapped around Alicia, both of them shaking violently, and crying hard. Alicia had faint blood stains on her legs. Jamia and LynZ were trying to get them to drink the glasses of water they held before them. Frank and Gerard were visibly panicking. Where is Ray?! "Oh shit" I whispered, apparently a little too loudly. All heads shot up and turned to me. "What are you doing here?" Gerard snarled. "Didn't you cause everyone enough pain, or do you find it nessecary to come back for more?" Frank jibed. "You've done enough damage as it is" Alicia whispered through her tears. I tried to ignore their comments. They are well-deserved. "What happened?" I asked shyly. "We lost the baby because of all the stress YOU put on everyone" LynZ snapped." I felt my stomach drop at that. "Where's Ray?" I asked tentatively. "Why are you even here?" Jamia asked me with a glare, everyone ignoring my question. "Because.. because I'm pregnant with Ray's baby" I answered in a small voice. Everyone jumped up, even Mikey and Alicia. "Where's Ray?" Alicia demanded. "I don't know. I came here to talk to him. This is the first place I came when I came in the house." A look of panic came across Alicia's face. She glanced at Mikey with a terrified expression on her face. "Oh god. Please no. Please please no" Mikey whispered to Alicia. Alicia just started crying hard again and darted towards the kitchen, everyone else following closely behind her.

I raced after them, entirely unsure of what was going on. I nearly crashed into Gerard's back in the kitchen. From the view between Frank and Gerard's shoulders, I could see Ray laying on the ground, in a pool of blood. "OH MY GOD!" I screamed, as Alicia knelt down beside Ray. I tried to push my way up to him, but Frank pulled me backwards. "You lost the right to be up there with him the moment you walked away" he snarled. What have I done?

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Hey guys! I've got the laptop in my room tonight, so I'm going to try and update a couple of times, but no promises. What do you think? Thanks for reading!

-Cass