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delapan || eight

Jackson stayed after I pulled my big puppy eyes that he can't resist. Mom and dad left without waking us up to have an early mass in nearest church in town.

We are sitting in the loveseat with my feets in his laps while we have a continental kind of breakfast. Jackson are really good at cooking breakfast, lunch and dinner. Ha! You got me.

"So would you like to explore the town? People would be like at their families house or church. So we won't be stuck in the traffic"

"My ex's girlfriend parents house is around here and I'm sure she's here. And If I see her again, then I'll be more awkward. She's getting married to a multimillionaire and look at me, I'm just a doctor that have none girlfriend" He chew his food faster, showing that be upset, "And I will make fun of myself, I mean, I tried with you but we end up broke up and decide on being friend and there no fit's girl out there that you know. Will take me as I am, without sucking my wallet and savings off"

"Jackson, I won't let someone think low of you. You're special, because you have kind heart and decide on be a doctor. To help those who needed help, and I'm glad that we are making progress, because there someone waiting for you to find her. And she won't be sucking your wallet and savings off"

Just seeing him happy is enough for me, he deserves to be happy. He always put people first, people happiness is his priority and he forget about his own needs.

"It's been a long time since the last time we had an heart to heart conversations" Jackson's put his plate down in the coffee table as he reach for mine and get up with the plates.

He come back soon after done the dishes, "I want to be honest with you Chris, but please don't hate me after this. Please."

The way he pleading always makes me go soft and eventually give in. I nodded my head to let him.

"I never happy about us after the accident last year. And I miss my old Chris that always know everything about us," he hang his head low, "not this one that try to find herself and save herself from the hell she created herself."

Now I understood why Jackson always so fragile and soft to me. He just want me come back to my old self, that why he refused to left me alone in the flat just for me to be myself again. So I don't have to be trapped in my own hell. That I myself created a long time ago.

"I am too" the sentence is short and simple but it's shows a lot.

"Let's get out, or we could go to McDonalds for coffee and we could see those Christmassy people around" He smiled and I enthusiastically nodded my head and run upstairs.

***

The black coffee always been my favorites beverages in the whloe universe. But I like Toraja Coffee more, it testes different from the other and it's always perfect. But McDonalds coffee is not bad, as long as it coffee then I'm okay.

Jackson in other side, always been the one who can't stop from eating. He just need to chew something, he have a lot of Mcnuggets. "I've been like seeing you in the past two hours and we just sitting here because you just want to have McNuggets."

"Well Chris baby, don't blame me it's delicious. And admit it, it sexy"

"Oh no," I shake my head in disagree, "Big Mac is always #1 and sexier than your McNuggets."

People come and left, we've been around three hours in McDonalds because it's feeling nice which is true. I order Big Mac because it look like we'll be here for a long time.

We just stayed in where we are three hours ago. Until Mom decided on give us a call. "Hello?" I said mouthful, makes Jackson laughing and I rolled my eyes.

"Chris? Where are you?"

"I'm at McDonalds with Jackson cause he is boring at house and yeah"

"You got us worried, thought you left without goodbyes. Be back home soon, we're visiting a colleague of your father," she breathed, there a pause before she adding, "do me a favour, please act like you and Jackson are a couple."

"Mom, why would you do that?" I furrows my eyebrows, "We can't do that?"

"Chris, just please, this man is dangerous and we can't risk on your life around him"

"Just because I love you both" I finally give in, Mom said goodbye after and soon the phone call ends.

"Jackson, listen carefully and don't you dare on cutting me," I threatens and he nodded his head. "Dad got invitations, and we're invited too. So we have dinner with my Dad colleague and somehow Mom wanted us to fake dating. Said it for my own safety. Please Jackson don't questioning any further because I won't able to answer to your goddamn pretty smart questions."

"Actually I don't get it, but if it's about your safety then I'll always up for it, you're the best thing that ever be mine, Chris" He softly said, and deeply stare into my boring brown eyes as he said the last sentence. Makes me smile, "I love you Jacky" there a smile formed in his lips, before crash a kiss on my forehead, "I love you too, silly" he murmured in the kisses.

"Alright let's back home, Mom will give me or you a call soon if we don't" I said as soon as we pulling apart. Jackson nodded before stood on his feet and reach for my hand and both of us left the McDonalds to home.

There always part of me will always loving Jackson and will always let him in. I will never give up on him, he will always needing me. And i am too.

I'll be a woman of my words and will done double update bcuz I lost connection with Wi-Fi for a long days. And I hate it, and I've been ill and I'm getting better now.

Happy Saturday and tomorrow is Valentine's and I'll be alone :( sad but i got my eyes into someone now which I'll tell you in next update.

- koko.