green eyes

sembilanbelas || nineteen

When I open my eyes found myself covered in dark room. I feel so cold but so warm. My lower region is kinda hurts and someone's wrap their arms on my waist.

I look to my left to see him, beautifully asleep with his long hair almost cover his beautiful features. I want to reach for my hand but something stop me.

Something that's makes me feel guilty.

He is Kendra's boyfriend. Kendra is my friend. And I sleep with him. In his bed.

I feel disgusting by myself, I gently remove his arms and sat on the bed. I took all my stuff and walk out the room. Get dressed on the living room is weird but as long as I'm not in the same room with him. I'm so unstable and he took advantage of me.

How could him?

My hand holding tightly on my jackets end, as I walk to the elevator. And I feel tarnished and guilty.

I dial the only number that's come on my mind and waiting for the person to pick up the phone.

"Hello?"

"Jackson! When are you back?"

"I don't know, maybe in two more days. 'Sup? You sound sad"

"I - I just miss you and it's so cold in new york without you"

"Oh, me too. Can't go on a day without thinking what's are you doing now"

He can put smile on my face, "Jackson, I love you"

"I'll love you forever, Chris"

I open my mouth to say something but then something happened, "Have to go, something happens, bye"

With that he hang the phone with me still on the line. Even with short amount of time, he still could make me smile. I hang the phone and walk away to market on my way home.

I took everything that comes on my head, and lot of ice cream and chips.

My phone rings, Cara Anderson.

"Helo?"

"Hey! Where are you now?"

"On my way home, why?"

Oh nothing, I just miss you and I got info that Harry and Chantell's is having a baby"

"The fųck? He did?"

"Uh hu, apparently he never too honest person yeah?"

"He dates my friend and I- can you come to my apartment now asap?"

"Okay, gotta hear some gossip. Tect me your address"

"Kay, bye".

I said and hung up the phone before put it back on my jeans pocket, I check out and take bus to home.

When I got home, I found Cara's sat on the staircase in front the front door. "I've been waiting for an hour" that's the first thing she said when she saw me makes me rolled my eyes.

"Come in"

***

We sat next to each-other with pizza and dr.pepper in between us, "This really a cool beasties date, ya know"

I nods my head, "Yeah, now I feel crying? Happy and sad," I shrugged. "I betrays Kendra"

"Who is Kendra"

"My friend, I sleep with her boyfriend, oh my gosh, I have no idea what's come to me"

"Jeez, do you tell her?"

I shake my head, "No fųcking way"

"But, do you at least slap the guy?"

"No, honestly you know this guy, I could never slap him. I don't know why"

"I know the guy? For real? Uh who?"

"I slept with Harry"

And her eyes widen before shaking it in refusal. Her eyes avoid mine, as if she's like been drowning on her own pool.

But she look me dead in the eye,

"He found you".

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Short but I'm mourning. My nephew died two days ago and I've lot in my head. And I miss him. And he's only
9 months.

-koko

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