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dua puluh tiga || twenty three

The mortarboard on my head when I stare to my appearance one more time. I finally got my bachelors on the age of twenty four, a year because of the commas and the recovers. I wasn't able to graduate back there. My heart jump of Jackson's voice. "You look so beautiful, so clever, smart woman and graduates"

"Thank you, Jackson" I pulled him into small hug but stayed, he's been with me since the very beginning and now he'll watches me take my diploma soon.

"You know, you are gonna be a wonderful wife and mother. Seriously" his eyes share happiness, his hand held waist. He put his head on my shoulder and kiss it through the layer of the dress.

"Let's run away"

Could feel the smile he's been held, I raised my hand to the back of his head and softly run my fingers. My other hand held him on his waist, our hug tighter and I get the feelings that he's tired of everything. Like he want it to get of his shoulders. And it's pained me to see him in struggle and dilemmas.

"Chris, I need you in my life. You're the only person I could trust and after my mum gone, I couldn't find myself but with you. You slowly put the pieces back by just be there in my side. I want to spend the days with you. Cause everything I'm fight on will leave me and turn their back on me"

And now I remember something, the things he will never forget is the day when his first girlfriend died because of leukaemia when he's only sixteen. He always referring to her, like she's always on his head. First Hazel and now his Mother. He loose the person he loved the most. Because the same causes.

"They never left you, I always told you that"

"I want to be honest with you Jackson, you have to move on from the past that been holding you for this long. Hazel wants you to be happy, she's leaving because she won't be on your life anymore but she'll always with you. In your heart and so did your mother. Don't let yourself mourning for so long and it's hurt them by not letting them go."

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Chris!"

I look up to see Mom and Dad rush over me, mom hand me the bouquet and crash me into group hug.

"Congratulations honey!"

The smile on their faces makes me happy, plus Jackson also here is the extra happiness.

"Why don't a group picture?" Jackson said, motion his camera. I nod my head before pose with my parents. Then dad take a bunch pictures of me and Jackson. There's a lot pose me and Jackson done only make mom said "more" each click. Mom admiring Jackson so much, makes her supporting mine and Jackson relationship.

It's two in the morning when my phone ringing, I remove Jackson's hand before positioning myself and lay to the headboard of the bed.

Kendra is calling...

"Hello?"

"It's been a long time huh? Been ignoring my calls and my text?"

She sound unstable, like she's drunk and she's slurring.

"How could you do this to me!"

And there's when she cried, she's sobbing and I also could feel her heart shattered. Because of one man.

"Ken-

"I thought we're friend," there pure heartbroken "but why would you go behind my back and crawling to my boyfriend. Are you that low and let your friend's boyfriend on between you legs?"