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dua belas || twelve

It's now the hardest time to say goodbye to my parents, they drop me at the train station. I hold them both tightly it's like I'm gonna lose them anytime soon and I'm not ready to be away from them.

The apartment is so quiet without Jackson's presence. He's been at Germany for his mother, I think of her too.

We are sending messages here and there, keeping them have a contact so I let them know that I'll be here no matter what.

I'm seeing dr.Wilde tomorrow and I think I'm gonna head bed now since it's been a long day.

And if you asked about my mysterious man then the answer is negative, ever since the Christmas I never see him again in my dreams. Even there's a lot I want to know about us.

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Harry's Pov🐸

Here come January, last years been so though for me. Glad it's new year now, glad I don't have to cope of missing her. Even it's still hard to be apart from her body.

Been holding myself on my ground, I promised myself I'm letting this go. That night I told myself that after this end I'm setting her free. Even a part of my body won't let me do that and holding me to. But I am a man for my words.

I might be an asshole back there but now I'm different, those day is gone.

I faced the photo frame down, I am madly in love. I love her with everything in me.

I'm a fool for letting her go, but she deserve it. A better life. In somewhere new. And Jackson is a good man for her and I approve him.

I grab my phone; it's 2:34 a.m. and I'm so tired of being a sad man. I want to love Kendra but it's not as easy as turning hand.
Kendra, she's the most sweet girl. I want to give her my all, I want to going forward with her. I want to make her feel loved.

Even sometimes I still compared them one and another. But they are so much a like.

They're loved wearing odd socks and I still remember the old day when I usually sneak in and she'll be having her favorites green colored socks. I miss her. When I spend the last night with her, it's like I'm with different body.

To: Kendra💕❤ (she oddly name save it)
Let me love you all over the places. All the love H.

It just maybe a short reminder that I'm trying so hard for her. And to my surprise she's texting back.

From: Kendra💕❤
I'm letting you in. I love you Harry. x

Isn't it too soon for the love?

To: Kendra💕❤
See you tomorrow, sleep well babe. Think of you xx

She responds to short text saying okay and I'm putting my phone back. I took the photo frame and tracing the glass.

"Is it too much to ask for something great?"

I always ask myself the same exact words, I shake the pain in my chest when I'm lowering the frame down to my chest and forced my eyes closed. Just imagined I'm at her arms.

Oh Chris look what you've done to me. You makes me addicted to your body. You makes me addicted to your love.

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Better updating than nothing at all. And yeah I'm back and hopefully tomorrow updates.

I'm actually almost ending my life by attempt suicide and everything just come crashing down. I don't need your pitty and I just tell you because of my lately absence.

I'm almost leaving my best girl, she actually crying when I told her I'll be leaving. Don't blame me I love my family but it just too much for me.

And I think I'm going bed now, it's 9pm here (GMT +8)

- k o k o