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dua puluh satu || twenty one

The ringing phone of mine keep blaring across the room in the middle of night, I believes. I lazily open my eyes to glance over the alarm on the nightstand, 2:33 A.M., who the heck call at this time.

I sat on my bed as i reach for my phone, Jackson name's written on the screen with his photos attached.

I furrows my eyebrows and accept the call.

"Jackson, what's happen?"

"Chris, she's gone, my mum is gone"

And I could feel tears forming in my eyes, his voice is broken and heartbreaking.

"I'll flew to Germany today, I'll book ticket now,"

"Chris, you don't have to. I just want to inform you that's all"

"Jackson! Do you think I'll fall for that? Hell no, do you listen to yourself at how broken and need me? I listen to you always, I want to be there for you Jackson, please don't shut me out"

I don't realize I'm crying until I sobs to the phone call, "You right," the way he say it it's broke my heart. "I always need you, I always need your comfort. I always need your arms. And I feel so fūcking pussy now."

"You're not pussy Jackson, you're just sad, you got your heart tore apart. It's okay to be crying."

I end the call not long after his cries died down, I booked a one way ticket to Germany early this morning at 6 o'clock. I took a quick shower and called a cab. I supposedly leaving New York to England this morning. But I got my England return ticket changed to Germany to England.

I called Mom on my way to airport, "Hey honey, are you early?"

"Mom, listen, I'm not flew to England this morning but flew to Germany-

"Woah Chris, you supposedly flew home today, why Germany all of sudden?"

"It's Jackson, his mother passed away and I just need to be there for him"

There a pause before mom speaking up, "Darla is such amazing women, she's a nice and kind women. I'm so sorry for Jackson, send my condolences to the sweet heart man. And to William"

"I will mom, I have to go" I said and end the call.

The cab stopped at the departures gates, i pay the bills and getting inside to check in.

****

Landed in Germany in the evening local time, I took taxi to Jackson parents house in downtown, I know nothing about speaks Germany so I got a little help from security man.

As I got to Johnson Resident, the house is opened for visitors. I'm gonna be embarrassed with lot of luggage, shit, I supposedly book a room and left my stuff there before going here.

The taxi stopped in front of house, I thank the driver before walk in. All eyes on me as I dressed unformal, but I catch the eyes of Jackson's father, he walk to me and I crash him in a hug.

"It's a long flight from New York, Chris" his voice is broken, "I'm sorry for your loss, uncle William"

I can't help but shed a tears. He wipe my tears and got someone help me with my luggage. "Jackson is in his room, blocking everyone includes me," we stopped, "it's gonna be your room, stay as long as you wanted, Chris."

"Thank you uncle William," I said and peck him on the cheeks.

"Jackson room is just down the hallway" He said before disappear down the stairs.

I open the door, the room are simple. It's beautiful and so victorian like the house.

I walk to his room before knocking the wooden door. "Dad please, leave me alone, please I'm begging you. I can't stand there and pretend that's I'm alright because I'm not. I miss my mum! I want my mum come back say it's all joke!"

A tears fall down to my cheeks, I turn the handle and the door is unlocked. I open it, his room is dark with only the light on the nightstands are on.

"Jackson," I said and hug him from behind. "I'm so sorry, aunt Darla is sad if she saw you this way" I feel his arms wrapped around mine.

"My mum is gone, Chris, she's gone just like that"

He turn around and kneel down in front of me and lay his head on my chest. Leaving me wrap my hands around his neck, holding me tighter as he whimpers on my chest.

He takes his head off my chest, "Help me forget, please get me forget about my sadness" tears streaming down his cheeks, his eyes puffy red. And he looks so broken.
His lips touch mine, I could feel his salty tears when we kissed. His hands wraps tightly on my waist while I wrap mines on his neck. As deepened the kiss.

I wish this could help him forget about this pain. Jackson please don't be sad, don't cry no more. I'm here.

******

It's been so long since I write here and I'm sorry for long updates. Anyway i got caught up with my college life.

And I'm broke up with Sasha. Sad but I'm okay, anyway I'm single and ready to mingle 😜😜 haha but its true I'm moving on.

- k o k o