5sos adopted me !

All time low

I was sitting in my room, staring at a wall. Doing nothing but drowning in my own depressing thoughts. To scared to move. To scared that if I do move, it might be to much for my heart and it might stop, it might pack up and leave.
I have to have a heart transplant.
Yeah, I don't know how I got to this but here I am.
Until they find me the right heart I have to go into the hospital daily for checkups. I seriously hate my life right now.

There was suddenly a knock on the door and I then heard Ashton's voice.
"Lyric? Are you ok? Can I come in?"
"Yeah" I sighed and moved over on the bed to give Ashton some room.
"Hey, I uh, I spoke to Billie your dad and told him the news" he said a sad look on his face. This was hard for us all. I could die any minute.
"Ok thanks, I'm sorry I couldn't do it myself" I sighed
"Oh lyric don't worry about that, we can completely understand why you wouldn't want to say it"
I nodded not saying anything. I still think I should have told him.
"Will you come down stairs, where we can all see you?" Ash asked now seeming worried.
I nodded and stood up. I followed them down stairs and they all rushed to help me sit down.
"Whoa, wait a minute" I said pushing past them so I was standing opposite them all.
"Look I may pretty much be on a death bed but in case I do die I would like to die knowing I could still do things myself" I sighed. They nodded but I knew that piece of information went through one ear and out the other. Sighing I sat down only to find that twenty minutes later I was wheezing like crazy.
"Shit! Breath come on girl!" Ash said sounding like he was ready to cry.
"I'm calling Billie to come over right now" Ashton said while Michael helped me breath. A while later I gained my breath back and was instantly given a glass of water.
"How you feeling?" Calum asked sitting beside me.
"I don't really know to be honest" I sighed
He looked at his hands and then looked back at me.
"Look, what ever happens, your going to pull through, your going to be ok" he said holding my hand.
"I wish I could believe that" I sighed getting up and walking to my room.
I know I shouldn't think that but since when did things really get better. Like anyone, please let me know.
I fell back into my bed suddenly feeling way more tired than a couple seconds ago. Then I fell asleep with a confused look on my face.

When I woke up I could barely open my eyes, my heart felt like it was barely beating.
"Baby? Baby come on we have some good news, something that might take your mind of all this"
My breath came out in wheezes as I finally pulled my eyes open. At first everything was a little blurry.
Soon everything came back into focus and Ashton helped up into a sitting position.
"Hey" he smiled warmly
"Hi" I smiled back
My chest felt uncomfortably tight and my breath felt short.
"I have some good news!" He grinned
"What's that?" I asked feeling a little happier
"We are going on a week tour with all time low and we are leaving tomorrow!"
"Is that what all those secret practices were about?" I laughed and had to suck in a breath to make sure I didn't stop breathing. Although it was probably me over thinking things. But then again you never know.
"Yeah" ash chuckled
"Well I'd love it, I can't wait to see all time low" I said clapping my hands with excitement.
"I know! They tweeted you by the way" he grinned.
"I'll be in my room waiting, if you need any help just call me"
I nodded and watched as he got up and left suddenly wanting nothing but to call him back in case something did happen. I sighed. I seem to be sighing a lot lately, I don't know whether it's my heart or whether it's habit.
I grinned when I suddenly remembered what Ashton had said and grabbed my phone off of my side table.
I logged on to Twitter and saw that I had a tweet from each individual all time low member.
The one from Zack said
'Can't wait to see lyric, it's going to be a blast!'
The one from Rian said
'So exited, going to have an awesome week with lyric!'
Jacks said
'Freeking love this girl! Can't wait to see you!'
And Alex's said
'Super pumped to meet lyric, it's going to be so much fun'

I squealed and decided I should probably get ready. I tweeted them all back and then slowly got up and walked to my walk in wardrobe. I pulled out some black leggings and a baggy jumper and walked to the bathroom where u had a very quick shower. Then when I was completely ready I walked to Ashton's room and knocked on the door.
"Ash?" I called
"Come in!" He called
I walked in and smiled when I saw him putting some socks on glad I hadn't kept him waiting.
"Ready to start packing when you are"
"Well I'm ready so let's go!" He had a look on his face that said. I know something you don't know"
Ignoring it the both of us walked into my room only for me to find that Michael, Calum and Luke were standing there with suitcases ready.
Tears of happiness sprang to my eyes as I realised how much I loved them.
"Let's get packing!" Michael yelled looking excited.
Only Michael
I laughed and began to pack.

Sorry for the VERY long wait, with school and other problems I have had no time.
I have GCSEs coming up so it has been a struggle, but although this isn't a very good chapter I thought I should try and do something for you, I will try and get back in the swing of things as soon as I can

Xxx