The Void Duelist

Chapter 14 - Rage

Aria's POV

I had already managed to sneak to my next class without Jaden seeing me, and before the bell went.

What happened kept replaying in my mind.

He was going to kiss me...and I screamed at him. Why does this make me so sad? Shouldn't I be angry at him? But... If I like him shouldn't I have been happy? My emotions feel like they're all mixed up... I don't like it. I don't like any of this... It's just causing more trouble...

For some reason Jaden was the only one who could always force me into a rainbow of multiple emotions. Half of which I didn't know. While the others being ones I didn't want.

Then there was Chaz. The first one here to even try and piss me off. Didn't react much then, only when he brought up my family.

Okay I just need to calm down.

I took some deep breathes. Then it struck me.

Calm down...since when was I not calm? Since when did I start feeling all these emotions? When did I let my wall down? WHAT?!?

I was slightly panicking, which was also new for me. I had never had my wall down before. It had been up for the past 6 years!

When did I put it down? Was it then...

I thought back the night when Jaden had stayed up all night to see if I was okay. The night Jaden was in my dream.

Was that it? I let my guard down around him, and in turn everyone else.

I was scared. I never had my wall down. It was there to always protect me. To stop people from getting through. But it was too late. Jaden had already made me feel something I didn't want. I made actual friends I care about. I hated it all. And it was all because of Jaden.

I can't let this happen. I have to put my wall back up somehow...but-

My train of thought was cut off by an opening of doors. It was Chaz.

"Well well. If it isn't little miss soulless. Oh wait, never mind. I've been seeing you are out with that other Slifer Slacker. I guess you do have emotions after all. At least for him anyways." He joked.

"Cut the crap Chaz, I'm not in the mood for your bullshit right now." I growled.

"Oh sorry. Did I hit another nerve? Like I did with your parents."

He better not be going there.

"I think I figured why that's a nerve. They're dead aren't they." He smirked. "They're dead...and it's all your fault? Or is the something else?"

How can he smile when he says that? The disgusting bastard.

I gritted my teeth and clenched my fists. I started shaking.

"Hmm...let me try guessing all this. Rich girl. Dead...mother? Abusive dad?"

He hit every bullseye. And I was pissed.

"Think of it this way. It could be worse. You could've had two abusive or dead parents. Or maybe neither from the start. You're just so weak." He laughed.

He went there.

"Chaz..." I growled.

"What do you want pest?"

"Do you have a death wish?"

"No. But I have a feeling you do. After all if you do you can go see your mummy. Although you'll probably wind up straight in hell."