best friend

15. best friend

you saw her walk home today.

she was wearing one of your old sweatshirts you let her borrow.

you noticed how fragile she looked.

she had always been the type of girl who stood up straight in confidence. now she was hunched over.

her face lost that glow it once had.

her face lost that smile and was replaced by a thin line.

her eyes lost that vibrancy and were replaced with dullness.

everything about her changed and you felt guilty.

you watched her walk into her home, without sending you a glance.

you walked into her porch with your hand hovering over the door.

you were about to knock when you thought otherwise.

you didn't want her to kick you out. you didn't want her to yell at you. you didn't want to get her upset.

so you left. and without you knowing it she was waiting to hear your knocks but frowned when they never came.

she called him since she wanted to ask him for a favor.

he came over and sat on her bed, a place that used to only be for you.

she asked him if he could go with her to her uncles funeral.

she needed some friendly support so he automatically said yes.

they walked into school on her uncles funeral day. they were both wearing black.

you totally forgot that her uncle recently died.

you forgot that it had been rough on her since they were both so close.

you forgot that she had previously asked you if you could go with her.

she decided to ask him instead.

you saw them leave school early.

you grew jealous, knowing that it should have been you there with her.

but you couldn't blame anyone other than yourself.

you didn't deserve her. she was such a nice person. she never talked behind people's back, she always did anything you asked her to do.

she was so kind and you felt horrible for treating her wrong.

you felt bad since you should have been there with her forever.

and you were scared that she would never let you in her heart ever again.