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Too Good - 02/28/16

I am in a mood that is entirely too good for my own good.

Because your texts make me smile wider with every word, and the way you smile at me makes me roll my eyes and smile at the same time. All I've been able to do the past few days is smile. Smile, smile, smile, with a lot of laughter thrown in for good measure, too. Is it even possible for you to make me not smile?

Every thought I've had in the past two weeks has been saturated with you, and the idea of you, from the moment you sent me that stupid Valentine to the moment you sent me those pictures of us last night. They grew in strength, of course, over time. The first few were more filled with confusion and the kind of thrill you get when you contemplate sneaking out at night just to try it out - because I knew it wasn't exactly right, but my goodness, didn't it feel great? It was new and it was different and it was refreshing to be away from the detachment I'd gotten used to. I wish I hadn't gotten used to it, but then you never would have made me feel the way I do now.

And yes, yes, thank you so much for understanding, the need to write, the need to transfer all this emotion into ink and words, into lines and colors, into pitches and chords. You know what it is, and you respect it, and you soak it all in, and then you tell me exactly what I needed to hear to keep going. How did you do that? How did you know?

And every touch, every touch. Shivers ran up my spine and down every nerve, every single time. I don't want to say "even the simplest, lightest touch" because it was especially the simplest, lightest touch that sent me reeling, feeling euphoric. When you just brushed your fingers on my arm, when your nose barely grazed my cheek - what did you do to me? Now I can't wait for the next time we see each other, just so I can feel your presence next to me and you can just barely brush against my hand and leave me thinking about you again for the next twenty-four hours.

You're just too good for me.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Call 911, I'm way too happy right now.

Also I'm wayyyyyyyy behind on these. I swear I'll catch up sometime.

Random quick doodle!! Okay!!