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Timeline - 01/27/16

For whatever reason, it's funny to me that when we dated three and a half years ago, you thought I was The One. You thought you would marry me in the future.

Look at you now, with your gorgeous girlfriend who you hang out with all the time. You've only been together for two and a half months but you guys adore each other and she seems so perfect for you.

It's also funny that I find so many similarities between me and her. There's no use listing them. There might be more.

Back to the marriage thing. You obviously loved me more than I loved you. I was giving you a chance. I had to help you ask me out. And we didn't actually go on what I would call dates, but then again, we were both young. We walked to the park that one day, while your family drove there, because you wanted time with me. You got it.

- - -

It's six months later and you don't have a girlfriend anymore. You're back in town from Europe for Christmas and you've got a caterpillar on your face, for a bet. You'll probably win the bet.

Oh, and I have a boyfriend. But you knew that. You ship us.

For some reason, sometimes, I still feel more comfortable around you than him. But I think it's part of your personality. Everyone feels that way around you.

- - -

It's two weeks later and we spent an awful lot of time yesterday messaging each other, because weirdly, you seemed up for it.

Stop wearing your hair like that, though. You look way too much like your dad.

Anyways, messaging. Yeah. I was originally just going to message you to tell you I know someone who thinks they like you despite you guys not even knowing each other, but I wanted to have a normal conversation first before I made it awkward.

And then when we ran out of things to say, you told me to choose truth or dare, and... I was surprised. But the weirdest it got was you asking me for my darkest secret, and I told you one of them. And you, apparently, have nothing to hide. Right.

- - -

It's five weeks later and you're back in Europe and we talk quite a bit on Snapchat for people who live in time zones six hours apart and are almost constantly in school. You were wondering why I was so friendly. I wondered why you didn't see me trying to be a friend when we were at church onstage together.

But that's okay. We're friends now. You understand.

Aight okay idk what that was.

The drawing is something I did in class yeet