I must get my soul back from you
I am killing my flesh without it
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Obsession is yet another word to describe how Benjamin felt for Edward. Benjamin was young when he realize what love is. He was young when he knew what does it felt like to own someone. To torture them in your own pit of darkness.
He had seen his parents done it. It sparks something in him that no one would be able to understand. Not even the love of his life, Edward.
That was exactly what he wanted to do to Edward. Torture him in his own personal darkness. Make him suffer for whatever there is to be suffer about. He wanted to break Edward so that later, all that's left is an empty person. A person who felt what he felt. A person who see the world the same way he does.
A person that he could live with.
So when Edward was pushing his buttons at breakfast, he was in pain. Every accusations that Edward had throw to his face had him crumbling inside.
His not a bad person. His not a killer. But at that time, Edward had almost made him be one.
But Benjamin knows all of those angers would only pass away with time. Right now, he need to think about the things that he and Edward could do for that day. Even though Edward seems like he could care less, Benjamin knows that Edward won't have any choice but to do as he said.
He knows Edward feared him. He knows that a single blow will turn Edward crumbling and shaking every time he would come close. Edward is scared of him.
Even if the thought of the one you love is scared of you hurts and broke Benjamin hearts to pieces, this is the only way. The only way to own Edward.
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RomanceGrowing up in a small world and being in a poor family, Benjamin Evan doesn't know normal. He doesn't have TV and the only thing he's exposed to is Edward Dawson. His best friend. But time always had been envy of the human progress and aging beaut...
