Chris walked over to me as I sat down on one of the benches.
My knees felt weak and my stomach was turning in all sorts of directions.
My head and everything else around me was spinning.
I felt as I was in slow motion and everyone else was speeding.
I heard Chris calling my name as I broke out of the trance I was in.
I looked at him and gave him my attention.
"I don't know if this is the right time to say this. " He started.
I looked at him and waited for him to continue.
"I know I have treated you wrongfully in the past, but that is because I had no idea what it was you were going through. I couldn't be there and care like I should have." Chris said.
I asked, "What is it are you trying to say?"
"I want you to give me another chance to love and care for you again." He said.
I wanted to believe him, I wanted to just fall into his arms and ignore everything else, but I know I can't do that.
Knowing what might happen if I would allow myself to do that.
"We had our chances but it didn't work, " I say, "I've found people in my life that can provide love and care for me already. "
"Nobody else in this world can provide the love and care I can and have given to you. " He says.
I shook my head in disbelief ss a tear rolled down my face.
I hated the fact that chris was right he was all I had and have.
No one knows me better than him, not my mom or Anthony.
We know each others secrets and everything else.
I tried to block out the things he said knowing they would all be true.
I heard him say, "Remember our first day of the 1st grade when I held your hand for the first time as we walked into class together because you were scared to go by yourself?" He asked, "Or in the 7th grade during that field trip it was night and we shared a bunk bed and our faces were only inches apart while we slept? You can't tell me that didn't mean anything to you. " Chris stated.
It did mean something to me, it meant a lot to me.
I was shocked by the fact he remembered those things.
"How do I know if things are going to change?" I ask.
"I'll prove it to you." He said assuring me.
I asked, "How?"
"Doing anything it takes to get you back." He says confidently.
He walked off and got into the car.
I followed behind him to the car moments later.
What could he have meant by 'anything it takes.'
I thought about it all night using it to take my mind off of anything else.
I got an idea on what Chris could have meant the following week later.
There was a pep rally for the basketball team because it was our last game of the season.
If we win we'd bring our school it's first basketball championship since 1982.
Each player had a few words to say what they'd wanted to do after they had won.
