These Things That We've Done (Kellin Quinn) {Book 2}

Chapter 35. Low

A/N: Happy early birthday MrsRadkeLandshark :) This chapter is dedicated to you!

Chapter 35. Low

~Summer~

Weddings really make me think. I think about River. He was a married man and I'm sure he'd love to witness Blu get married. I think about KC. Would he and I be married today if he were still alive? Would he have married someone else? I think about Jessica. I think that she'd be happily married and having children with a good man, not one that made her feel low. I think about my mom. I bet she looked so beautiful walking down the aisle. I've seen her wedding photos before, but I wonder what it would be like to see it in person. 

I also think about the less important things, like dresses and such. I think about how I love wearing dresses and how the color purple looks very good on me. I think about Blu and the waterfall-like gown she has. I want a dress like that if I ever get married again, but that probably won't happen. I think about how my hair has grown to be very long. My point is I think a lot during weddings. Especially when there's so much to think about, like the ceremony, the reception, the wedding party, the groom, and the bride. 

Speaking of the bride, she looked gorgeous. Her shoes were white white a few diamond gems. Her gown was big and beautiful, definitely a gown to lust over. On her wrist she wore a diamond bracelet and around her neck was a diamond 'C' necklace. Her nails were manicured, her bouquet had lovely purple and white flowers, and her make up was perfect. She doesn't believe in the something old, new, borrowed, and blue stuff, but in her reconstructed ears were my earrings that I wore on my own wedding day. I thought they'd be good luck, though she probably has enough good luck with her new tattoo on her wrist. It's Beau's full name and date of birth. 

Blu looked stunning, but she also stunned us. It's been so long since I've seen her without purple in her hair, but today she was all blond. The golden hair was curled and styled to perfection. I loved the hair, but was surely shocked. 

"Three minutes!" Blu's father called out, pulling me back into reality. I smiled and looked down and my shoes. They were like Blu's, but in black. My dress was purple and my necklace was silver with a black diamond charm. The necklace was a bridesmaids gift from the bride herself. I my bouquet, which had purple flowers only and was smaller than Blu's, tight in my hand. I shivered, butterflies filling my tummy. Its been too long since I've been in a wedding party. I was nervous. I was nervous to walk down the aisle and stand in front of everyone. Blu's family, CC's family, my boyfriend, my ex husband, my mom, my sister, and her family. The only people I wasn't nervous to stand in front of at an alter were Della, Allix, and Beau. Oh how I wish Scarlet was here too. 

Despite my nerves, the bridesmaids and I lined up, getting ready to walk out. The groomsmen, Andy, Jinxx, Jake, and Ashley, were already out and standing beside the groom. I looked back at Blu who was clutching onto her mother's arm. Both her mother and father will be giving her away. "I love you," I murmured to her with a grin. No matter how nervous I was I need to remember that it's Blu's day today… or Blu's night, considering it's 8:00 PM. You couldn't really tell though since we're inside. 

She breathed in and out slowly before saying, "I love you," back. 

Mr. Vera walked into the room we had. "It's time," he said. He walked over to his daughter and they linked arms. He was happy, proud, and in the mood to celebrate his family and the Mora's joining together. The smile on his face said it all. He was beaming. 

Brenda was first to walk out of the room and down the aisle. She walked through the big doors of the wedding hall with her head held high and her smile on big. Next was Carolyn. She nervously held her bouquet. Watching her I could tell I wasn't the only nervous maid. After Carolyn was Blu's half-sister Missy. Then, it was me, the maid of honor. I'd like to say I walked with pride in every step, but I didn't. I smiled worriedly, I blushed embarrassingly, and I pretended to know what I was doing as I walked to my place. Once the girls and I were alined everyone stood up. Blu was escorted through the doors and walked down the white carpet to meet CC at the end. 

When Blu reached the alter she kissed her parents on their cheeks and handed me her bouquet. Everyone sat down as the ceremony started. I scanned over the rows of guests. In the front row on Blu's side were her grandparents, her parents, her aunts, and the adorable Beau. A few rows back I noticed Jack with Honor, Jesse with his wife, Justin with his girlfriend, Gabe with his girlfriend, and Kellin with Alissa. Kellin didn't seem happy though. He only frowned as his girlfriend snuggled up against him.

Kellin's gaze was suddenly set on me. He silently scoffed and shook his head. I knitted my eyebrows together. What did I do? I thought we were okay. We've been fine for months. We've been friends for months! Maybe it's just Kellin being weird. 

I rolled my eyes at my odd ex and looked another row behind Kellin. Destery sat there next to Della, Allix, Sierra, her husband, their children, and my mother. He saw me looking at him and smiled. His teeth became visible and I could tell that he was quietly chuckling. That man is so freaking adorable, especially in a suit. I just wanted to leap into the audience and kiss him so bad. That would be rude though. I mean, I could rip my dress or break my shoes, and Blu bought both of those things so I don't want to waist her money. 

My eyes landed on the couple next to me. I began to pay attention to the wedding once again. Either the ceremony was extremely short or I spent too much time looking at the guests because the next words that came out of the officiants mouth were, "I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may now kiss!" And that's exactly what they did. That kiss made me momentarily forget about Kellin, Alissa, Destery, and everyone else. 

Finally, on December nineteenth in front of all their family, friends, and the ever-watching eyes of River, Blu and CC were pronounced husband and wife. 

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I held Destery's hand tightly as I walked off the dance floor in the reception room. I walked over to the table Andy was sat at with his girlfriend. I leaned over so they could hear me over the music CC had playing while people waited for food. "Have you seen Kellin? I want to introduce him to someone," I said. I motioned to my boyfriend. 

"Oh yeah! He's over by the bar with the guys and a few girls," Andy informed us. 

I smiled. "Kay, thanks." I moved through the tables full of guests. Destery followed, not that he had a choice though. The guest we passed were busy awaiting the cake. CC and Blu still needed to cut it and it still needed to be served. We made it to the bar. Kellin was standing there with his arm wrapped around Alissa. I pulled Des along. I tapped Kellin's shoulder once. 

"Huh?" He spun around and frowned when he saw me. "Oh, hey."

"Hey Kellin. I haven't seen you in awhile." A long while. He was wearing his suit from our wedding, but I ignored that. I noticed his hair was dyed completely black once again and longer. I couldn't help but think about running my hands through his hair. I always loved it when it was long and only black. Sometimes his hair would have highlights or show his natural color.  

He nodded as the guys averted their eyes. Was this awkward or something? "Yeah. So where's Vic?" The answer is yes, very much so. Why bring up Vic?

I cocked my head to the side. "Vic? Probably in San Diego. Why would you ask that?" I quizzed. He didn't think Vic was my boyfriend, did he?

He scoffed. "Don't play dumb with me." 

"Kellin," hissed his girlfriend. 

I smirked. He did! Too bad he is completely wrong. "Is this Alissa?" I asked, even though I knew it was. I had seen them in pictures before. Kellin nodded. I stuck out my right hand, the one that wasn't holding Destery's. She shook it gently. "Hey Alissa. I'm Summer." I pointed to the boy next to me. "And this is my boyfriend, Destery. And no, I'm not dating Vic if you, or anyone else, thought that." I scowled at Kellin. 

He pointed to Des, who was grinning shyly. I too was grinning because the looks on everyone's faces were completely grin-worthy. In other words, they were priceless, and only a grin would be the appropriate facile expression for the moment. "He's your boyfriend? But I thought Vic was."

I shook my head. "No, he isn't. I'm seeing Destery. Get your facts straight before being rude and treating me like dirt."

"But he's like nineteen! How the hell are you with him?!" Kellin exclaimed in confused. His band mates agreed. 

Destery laughed. "You know man, you're pretty funny. Seriously though, who are you to ask that? She can date whoever she wants, just like you can. By the way, I'm twenty-three," Des said. "Oh, and just to add my thoughts on this situation, your girlfriend doesn't look too much older than me. If I didn't know any better I'd say that this isn't about age and that you're just jealous. But, I do know better. I know that you aren't smart for letting Summer go and you aren't smart for thinking you can say who she can and can't date. Now if you'll excuse us-" Kellin cut Destery off mid-rant. I have to say, Des was on fire. Also, him standing up for us was so fucking sweet. It only makes me love him more. 

"No, please excuse me." Kellin let his grip around Alissa's waist drop. He moved away from our little group with a frown upon his face. We watched as he sulked out of the reception room. 

"I should go after him," Jesse mumbled. 

"No." Alissa stopped him. "Just drop it, okay? Lets give him some time to think and cool off. Come on guys, lets go dance." They all slowly made their ways to the dance floor, ignoring what just happened. 

I looked back to the reception doors to see Blu chasing after Kellin. She must have seen, or heard, what happened just now before cutting the cake. I turned to Des and sighed. "I gotta go see him," I murmured. He silently nodded, letting go of my hand so I could go off to find him. 

~Kellin~

I stormed out of the reception room, leaving my friends and girlfriend to dance without me. I paced in the halls of the fancy hotel. I was jealous of someone much younger than me dating my wife. I mean ex wife. Behind me I could hear the sound of heels on tile and the shuffling of a dress. I turned to see a sad Blu. 

"Did Summer send you out to see me? Did she see me run off and get worried? Wow, she's such a sweetheart," I spat sarcastically.

"Kellin, calm down," Blu pleaded. 

"No! First of all she doesn't tell me she's seeing someone else, then she shoves him in my face!" Blu always secretly wished Summer and I never broke up. Maybe she was hoping that I would come to the ending and try to win back Summer. Even though I have a feeling to do so, I'm not going to. I just need to figure out my feelings. I know one of them already, and that's rage. 

"Kellin…" I wiped my head around to see Summer at the end of the hall. Blu looked back and forth between us. She sighed and walked back into the reception room. Summer moved towards me. 

"What do you want?" I asked harshly. 

"I want to know why you're acting like this," she said quietly. 

"You never told me you had a boyfriend!" I yelled. "I told you about Alissa."

"By choice, though. I never asked you to tell me about her. You did it because you wanted to. Destery has nothing to do with you so I had no need to tell you about him until now." Summer glared at me. "And you know what? If you're so interested about Des then I want you to know he's a real man. He doesn't whine and bitch about his ex. He treats me the way he's supposed to."

"Shut up! I don't want to hear about him. God Summer, I swear you make me low." I frowned and began to walk away. 

"What?" Summer asked. 

I turned and hissed, "You make me feel so low. I try so hard to convince myself it's okay I feel this way and if I don't have you I wouldn't be by myself." There, I said it. The truth.

"Kellin… I don't understand?" Summer cautiously walked towards me, wanting to be careful in case I backed away. 

"Summer," I still want you. I feel terrible about it because I'm with Alissa, but I still want you. I feel alone without you, even though I'm always surrounded by people who love me. You do this to me, Summer. You make me crazy. I shook my head. "Never mind, forget it." I turned and walked back to the reception room. 

"Kells, wait!" Summer ordered. I just chuckled. It was hilarious to think I could wait. If I even waited a second I would have grabbed and kissed her, and we all know I can't let that happen. Not until I can't stand it anymore. For now I think I'm safe, but sooner or later I won't be. I'm betting on sooner rather than later though. Let me tell you one thing though. Sooner can't come soon enough.

A/N: I'm very please with this chapter. It's long and I think I wrote it well. Song on the side is Low by SWS and picture is of Blu's outfit and Summer's outfit. Also, I'm thinking about a sequel to this, but I'm not sure. Comment you're thoughts about a sequel and the chapter. Please and thank you. Love you all. <3

~Catt