I don't know if I should be upset or happy. I really don't. I looked at Kaydence, she looked at me curiosity filling her eyes, I hid the paper away from her.
I couldn't help but sob, she's not mine.
I don't know why I am so emotional, I just got to a point where I could accept being a father. Now I'm not.
We got home and as soon as Kaydence and I walked through the door we were ambushed by Andy and Sammie. Tears were streaming down my eyes, but my face showed anger. I glared at Sammie, causing her smile to disappear. Andy showed concern as he wrapped his arm around my shoulder.
"Ashley...?", Andy whispered to me.
I brushed him off, dropped the papers on the floor and locked myself in my bedroom. How dare she just come into my life, turn it upside down, make me get attached and for nothing! I heard muffling then a few gasps followed by the door slamming shut. The house was quiet. I heard Andy's footsteps walk by the bedroom door, then talking. I think he is on the phone. I sobbed and punched the wall repeatedly. I hated my emotions being fucked with.
The front door opened and I heard CC, Jinxx, and Jake's voices. Why did Andy invite them over, why now. My knuckles were bleeding and my eyes were red and swollen. Why do I care so much, why.
Knock, knock.
"Ashley..please come out." CC begged at the door, "we are here for you, just please come out."
I whined and opened the door, "I don't know why I care Christian..."
He hugged me, he gives the best hugs out of everyone, even Andy. I sobbed and tried to force myself to stop.
He let go, staring at me, "there's nothing you can do now Ashley. Just try to be happy with Andy, he's extremely worried about you. Stop pushing him away."
I couldn't help but smile, CC always gave great advice, all around he was just a great guy. He patted me on the back and helped me clean myself up. We walked out to Jake, Jinxx, and Andy in the kitchen. Andy stared at me with his piercing blue eyes full of worry. I ran up to him and hugged him tight, I feel so bad for pushing him away. I put him through so much.
I looked up at him, my eyes watering, "I'm so sorry..."
He smiled and pressed his lips gently against mine, causing me to melt in his arms. He pulled back, "I'm always here for you Ashley, always. You're my little outlaw and that will never change."
I couldn't help but sob. Jake, Jinxx, and CC joined us in a big group hug. That was the start of a great next 6 months.
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We planned for the wedding, partied, and perfomed like crazy for the next 6 months. It was like a big flash of fun and pure bliss. I was so happy, Andy was so happy, everyone was just overjoyed because there were no bumps in the road. I felt so lucky, but so scared at the same time. I didn't want it to end.
We have our biggest concert tonight, it's in a baseball stadium, but I have forgotten the name. I'm lost in my thoughts. Not only is this our biggest concert yet, Andy and I are getting married tonight.
I was dressed in a white jacket and white pants, no shirt under, I never wear a shirt, why do it on my wedding day? And of course I needed my cowboy boots and my Black Veil Brides bandana. I looked pretty good. I wasn't allowed to see Andy until we hit the stage, we were going to get married first. God, I am so damn nervous.
What if I just freeze? What if I can't say anything at all. DAMMIT. I could hear to crowd chanting and my body going numb with each chant.
The minister came up to me and told me how this was going to go and I feel like everything he told me went in one ear and out the other. He was going to go on stage and announce what was going to happen to the fans. I don't know why but that made me panic. Telling the fans made it real for me, they're my family.
CC was right beside me, he was my best man. Jake and Jinxx were with Andy. I was shaking from head to toe and I kept reaching for my bass but it was already set up on stage. My bass is like my security blanket. I'M SO EXPOSED RIGHT NOW ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY.
Then I heard the minister.
"Ladies and Gentlemen", the crowd quieted with scattered murmuring, "we have a special surprise for you all", they cheered, "a wedding is going to take place on this stage tonight and you are going to be the witnesses", they screamed with uncertainty of who was getting married, "can I please have the two men who are getting married tonight come onto the stage with their wedding parties."
That was our cue. The crowd was quiet, anticipating who would come out behind the curtains. I was on the right side of the stage and Andy was on the left. The minister motioned for us to come out, Andy appeared first. The crowd screamed in approval. I was frozen, I couldn't go on the stage until CC pushed me, revealing myself to the stadium of people. The screams and the cries were almost overwhelming, but I made it to the middle of the stage. I was greeted by the minister and my beautiful, Andy.
He was wearing a white black tank top and black skinny jeans with a star chain hanging from his pocket. He looked ready for a concert and that was perfect. This is exactly how I want us to get married.
The ceremony took 20 minutes, it ended with a kiss, screams, and fire exploding from the stage. This was the most epic wedding EVER! We quickly transitioned into 'performing mode'. We played for 4.5 hours and I didn't want it to end. This was our reception, our honeymoon, everything in one and we were so happy with that.
After that night, my life couldn't have possibly gotten any better.
But it was about to.
A/N; Sorry for the late update! I'm so busy lately, I hope you guys are enjoying it! What do you think is going to happen next???
