Leaving Me

Chapter 12

This lucky girl got to sit next to Ashton on a plane yesterday ^^^

Franky's POV

Its 6am and I'm awoken by my alarm clock. I swear my alarm clock is jealous of the relationship I have with my bed.

I get out of bed and it hits me. Its Friday. Thank fucking god, but a wave of sadness washes over me when I remember that I haven't seen my dad in 3 days. Honestly, Im starting to hate his new job, I never get to see him. I would move back with my mom but I don't quite forgive her yet because she has never bothered to call or text all she did was send me some clothes.
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I finally get ready after forcing myself to get out of my thoughts. I'm having a no care day, I straightened my hair brushed my teeth, just put on some leggings and a sleeping with sirens sweatshirt.

I run down my stairs to go grab my black and white vans already knowing that my dad wouldn't be here. But I can see from a distance, on the table he left a note but I'm not even going to bother to read it. The note most likely say 'sorry for not being around' or some bullshit like that. And to be honest I think it will wreck my day if I read what it says.

Walking past the note I go to the front door and put on my shoes and then grab my backpack and head to school.

I really hope I don't run
into Luke again that walk was horrible. I still don't know who I remind him of, I wish he wasn't so...I don't know...sad?

Walking out the door I sadly see a familiar boy that I wish I didn't see

Luke's POV:

I am on my way to school and the weather is god awful. Its so hot. I regret wearing all black today.

Lately with Addie being gone has really hit me hard. I really don't want to go to school.
And that's exactly what I'm going to do. When I cross paths on the road instead of going right I go left, people at school would be better off without me there.

You know my mom has always told me that all things happen for a reason what the hell does that even mean. That's like telling someone who has cancer that hey you were suppose to have this, doesn't any one see how fucked up that saying is.

My sister shouldn't be gone, there's no reason why she should be gone. My mind is racing, probably 100 miles per hour I'm really dizzy I...I...can't breath.

I now realize that I'm at the park that me and Addie would go to when things were rough. This makes my condition worse. I fall to my knees, pulling at my hair I'm getting more light headed by the second. "Hhhhh" thats all I can say. I try to say help one more time but that's when I push my self over the limit and everything goes black.
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"Luke wake up Luke wake the up. Luke."
I hear but barely. I groan, my head is in extreme pain. I look at my surroundings, I'm still at the park. What happened to me why did I pass out

"Huh?"

"Luke it's me, Calum I'm so glad your awake. What the hell are you doing here Luke? Why weren't you at school? Are you okay?"

I stand up slowly trying to keep my balance. I look down and I see tannish dirt all over my black ripped jeans.

Shit.

"Calum stop asking me questions. Please leave me alone!" I start to walk away but I'm grabbed by my shoulder and spun around to quickly for my heads comfort. I groan at the pain of moving to fast.

Wait its sunset how long have I've been out?

"Luke! Don't you dare try and fucking walk away. Now answer my god damn question. What the hell is going on?" Calum says while gritting his teeth.

"I don't know."

"Yeah uh I think you do know, Luke answer me." He says slightly more calmly.

"I miss her Calum," I blankly state.

"You miss who?" Calum's voice is now very quiet and calm.

"Addie Calum, I miss add-" I am cut off by my own sobs.

"Shit Luke." Calum pulls me into a hug. And this makes me cry more. Dammit I'm so fucking weak. Why do I always have to bring him into my problems.

"Luke how- why did you pass out was it because of her."

"Cal I don't know I think it was a panic attack I don't know. I can't do this anymore I am just done." I pull away from him. At my words Calum looks so lifeless.

"Luke don't say that. I know that you don't mean-" I cut him off.

"Yes I do! I hate everything. I hate my self I hate this world. I just fucking don't want to do this anymore can't you see. I just want to be with her. I miss my sister..I miss her jokes I miss everything about her!"

Nothing is the same without her here. No one will understand what I am going through. She shouldn't have died! I should have!" I don't even no if Calum understood what I said, Im crying to hard. Calum trys to reach out to me. "Don't fucking touch me cal. I don't need your sympathy anymore."

"Luke you can't-"
"Yes I fucking can now leave me alone!"

"No i will not leave you alone Luke. I know Addie is gone but you have to move on or at least fucking try, stop moping around all the time. I can't handle this Luke. You're my best friend and I can't stand to see you like this anymore!" Calum shouts so loud at me the sky echoed his last words. I start to itch at my wrist the burning desire gets worse and worse the more we talk.

Calum slaps my hand away from my wrist.
He looks at my wrist and sees how red it is and his eyes start to well up with tears. I can't do anything right. I'm putting my best friend through hell.

"Luke please stop just- I miss the old happy Lu-"

I shake my head, "That Luke is gone Calum."

"Stop interrupting me. l
Let me fucking finish one sentence."

"Then you stop saying stuff that will never happen."

"Luke can we please not yell. I'm tired of doing this with you."

"You are tired of me you're not tired of this."

"Please stop Luke, you're my best friend and I will help you through this. I helped you last time, just tell me what to do." Calum is very calm now. I don't know what him being calm means.

"I don't know how to feel anymore. There's no meaning to live. It really feels like that."

"The first thing you need to do is try and forget."

A/N: hello you beautiful people I hope you liked this chapter. I thought it was pretty intense. Thank you for voting and reading. Keep on doing that if you. Want okay well till next time bye.