Leaving Me

Chapter 11

Luke's POV:

Its 3am and I can't sleep for the life of me. I'm exhausted but my mind won't stop thinking, I try to calm down but all I can think about is Franky.

Franky this Franky that she fucking my head up.The first time I saw her, when cal introduced the guys and me to her I was shocked. From the first word she said to me she reminded me so much of my sister.

I miss her so much, she was taken away from me when I was just 14. Its been hell without her. I'm 17 now, its been three years and I am still not over it. She was only 16 when a drunk driver took her life and nearly mine too. My mom always tries to tell me it wasn't my fault but it was.

I remember, it was such a nice day out, we were on our way to the mall. We just wanted to hang out we had such a good relationship, other than the guys she was best friend. We were blaring sleeping with sirens, just jamming out and having fun. When the album finished I wanted to change the CD to all time low.

I reached into the glove compartment and grabbed it out. When I took the disc out of the case to swap the other disc out of the radio, I dropped it on the floor. My sister laughed and said "Luke come on that's new" I can remember it so clearly. She reached down to grab it and boom. That drunk driver hit us. Even if that guy wasn't drunk Addie would have died anyways because of me.

If I didn't drop that stupid disc or I would of just picked it up myself she would still be here today. I'm such an idiot! I miss us playing outside together I miss or stupid fights about the TV remotes.

I just miss her I don't know what to do anymore the guilt has been eating me alive for years and I cant take it anymore. I wanna be with her but I can't just leave my mom and dad alone I have to be strong for them even though I'm not.

Tears begin to role down my face. I can remember her flying through the wind shield I can remember the horrible scream just before the car crashed into us. I remember everything and I just wanna forget.
The thing that pisses me off the most is that nothing really happened to me. My left arm was broken and I had a few cuts and bruises, and just a small concussion from the air bag. I wish I would have died with her I really do. But now all I have are memories and pictures but that's never enough.

I look over at my clock and its already 4:30am, I have been just lying her in my bed alone drowning in my thoughts of her. Fuck why was it her why couldn't I have died. I hate everything especially myself. All of this pressure just because I don't want to leave my parents with another dead child.

I just don't know anymore. I wanna be with Addie again, I want my sister back. How can you want something so badly but have to wait almost your whole life to get.

The thought of waiting my whole life sends chills through my body and tears just start to rush harshly down my face. I burry my face in my hands. "Addie please come back please come back!" I say aloud between sobs. "Addie! Please answer me I need you here I can't live like this anymore!"

But I get no answer.

A/N:hi guys omg I cried while writing this. Well now you know who Franky reminds Luke of. Omg I feel so bad for writing this! But I'm glad you guys kinda know what is going on. Also thank you for all the reads and votes! Keep voting if you want haha. Okie well that's all I love you guys. Oh wait I also might update again tonight cause this was kinda short but idk yet. Okay well now bye haha:)