Leaving Me

Chapter 25

Luke with wet hair is going to kill me one day...just saying.

Luke's POV:

I am finally home...finally done with that horrible night. Being at that hospital made me sick because I knew what was going on.

I can remember all of the emotions so well. Anger,sadness,and most of all confused. I don't understand any of this, I really thought Ashton was happy, but I was very wrong.

I can remember me and Calum were writing songs in my room. We finished a song called broken home. I asked Calum to help me write it for Franky; I really wanted to help her feel better about her parents. 

We were finishing up the chorus of the song when my mom ran into my room and told me and calum what happened. Cal and I we were just in shock but the feelings didn't sink in until we got in Calum's car. My mom went to go pick up Mrs. Irwin while Ashton was in the ambulance getting driven to the hospital.

I haven't stopped crying, I feel the same way I did when Addie left this sick fucked up world.

I am just glad Ashton is alive.

Last night when Franky went into the hospital room something happened and he almost died. She won't tell me what happened though. She spent the night at my house because we were both really fucking spazzed out. But yeah the whole time she was here she wouldn't tell me a damn thing that happened. She did tell me one thing actually she kept repeating "its all my fault" over and over. She was making any sense.

All I know now is that Ashton won't be let out of the hospital until tomorrow night. The doctors want to keep him for another night so he doesn't have a relapse of the night before.

He lost a lot of blood so he is going to have to stay home for about a week.

I'm just sitting in my room all alone. I asked my mom is I could stay home, Michael is coming over later. Michael wanted to stay home to. Even Franky and Calum stayed home, we are all a wreck.

I look over at the clock, he is coming over at 4pm and it's 3:50pm what the fuck. It was just the morning...how long have I been just sitting here.

You know I'm not surprised I used to do this a lot. I'll just sit for hours and lose my mind. I hate being by myself because my thoughts usually just eat me apart. But not this time because I don't feel shit. I haven't eaten all day or slept at all. I'm just so confused why would Ashton do this?

He never showed anything, not one pit of sadness. Either he's really good at hiding himself or I'm just a insensitive ass hole.

I'm a fucking terrible friend I wish I was the one laying on that hospital bed with the suicidal thoughts. He doesn't deserve that shit.

Ding dong ding dong

I can hear from downstairs, Michael must be here.

I get off my bed and run down the stairs to the front door. I open the door and Michael looks like hell.

His eyes are all puffy, his hair is a mess and he has deep dark circles under his eyes. Probably how I look now. But we both are in sweats and have beanies on. We both are done.

"C'mon in man"
I gesture to Michael.

He nods his head and instantly gives me a bear hug. I wrap my arms tightly around him. We both needed this after almost losing our best friend.

I can here quiet sobs coming from Michael, Jesus Christ now here come my fucking tears. No Luke stay strong, and fuck there they are.

Me and Michael are both sobbing into each other.

God dammit Ashton! Fuck fuck fuck! What the hell was he thinking?

.............

Michael and I have been just playing video games and we ordered a pizza. The pizza was shit but we both didn't care.

Me and Mick are playing Fefa right now, and Michael is kicking my ass. What the fuck this is my house.

"When did you get this good man?" I ask him. Seriously I'm confused.

"I don't know really I guess you just suck"

"Fuck you man!" I say while I chuckle. Michael can always make me laugh, I really needed that. I mean sure Franky always makes me laugh but she wanted to be alone today, which I totally understand.

I get interrupted by my thoughts when I here 'Game Over'.

"What happened Mick?"

"Your character was just standing there doing nothing so I kicked your ass haha".

"Wow thanks I appreciate it."

"You are so very welcome." Michael gets up and bows.

"Sit down smart ass."

"What a man can't appreciate his awesomeness?"

"Yeah but you can't."

"Fine I see how it is."

"Good"

"Good"

"Fine"

"Fine"

We are such children.

"Shut up Michael god. But hey do you wanna spend the night tonight, I need the company."

"Yeah sure since we both probably won't be going to school tomorrow."

"Yeah probably. I just don't have the feeling and motivation to go right now. I don't think any of our friends do."

"Yeah exactly. God this just fucking sucks. Like I feel like shit. I don't even know what to say or think."

"Me to man me to. Do you wanna just go to bed? I'm fucking done right now."

"Okay yeah that's fine. I call floor!"

"Don't you always get the floor anyways Mick?"

"Yeah cause you sir suck."

I put my hands up in surrender. "Fine fine do you want the bed?"

"Nah your bed sucks"

"Well okay then. Let go upstairs."

I leave the living room and so does Mick.

Today was alright, I probably would be a fucking wreck if Michael wasn't here. So I really owe him."

A/N: hello my futter Muckers. I got that from a YouTuber haha. Okay so I liked this chapter but then I didn't because I was having slight writers block. But oh shit it was like 1200 words so bam. So are you guys glad Ashton is alive? I am haha. But believe me the drama is not over!!! I still can't believe the Ashton and Franky thing like Holy shit. AND TYSFM FOR ALL THE READS HOLY SHIT 875????!!!!!!! WTFFFFF. I REMEMBER WHEN THIS STORY HAD LIKE 10 READS OMGGGG. I LOVE YOU GUYS! TALK TO U NEXT CHAPTER!