Leaving Me

Chapter 37

This book has one more chapter after this one. I'm seriously crying.

Franky's POV:

I know what I have to do.

I collect myself together and walk over to laptop. Opening the lid of it, I take a seat on my bedroom floor.

I let my eyes scroll over the apps I have on the front desk of my laptop. Clicking on the Skype app to possibly make the worst decision of my life.

My eyes begin to brim with tears when I see his profile picture, he had for Skype. It was Luke and I making the silliest faces.

(Pic of their face at the top)

I breath out a giggle and let the few beads from my eyes slip down my face. I truly, truly with all my fucking heart love this quiffed boy; but if you love someone sometimes you have to let them go. 

The glow of my laptop is mesmerizing. The glow makes me happy in a strange way.

I haven't been happy for so long but when I'm with Luke, nothing could make me happier.

Thats why I have to do this. I needed to let him go so we can live out our lives without sadness. He is going to make it so big one day, he won't need me anymore. And thats not fair to either of us, to just drag along this relationship in heartbreak.

So I did what is best and clicked on the Skype call button next to Luke's icon.

The familiar ringing of the call fills my room. But then it stops because now the line is open.

I can see Luke's face but I can't touch it. Knowing that I can't hug him right now breaks my heart, makes me ill really. Each breath I take I can feel my heart shatter more and more.

He is such a cutie, Luke. He will be able to move on and find some better, prettier.

He smiles at me, "hey baby is everything alright? I just got home from hanging with the boys so the time is unlimited for us."

"Luke n-no everything isn't alright, or at least not anymore--," I drift off.

His smile slowly fades into a hurt expression, " Oh, well what's the matter babe?"

This is going to be so much harder then I thought.

"Do you remember the time you took me to the beach and sang to me," I totally disregard his question..not ready to answer it.

"Yeah I remember that really well. That day is probably one of my favorites in my whole life. I loved singing to you, Franky. It was such a beautiful night, but spending it with you made it so much better ya know." He flashed a gorgeous smile at me.

I can feel the butterflies roaring in my stomach. Scratch that, this feeling is more like psychotic bats.

"That is and always will be one of my favorite days too. But thats just what make this so much harder for me to do." I sighed, not ready to lose him.

"B-baby?" Luke softly whimpered to me.

"Listen to me Luke, I love you with all my heart and thats just why I'm doing this. I can't take the pain of not seeing you. Or not being able to kiss and hug you all the time. My heart is shattered from depression I've been dealing with ever since you left. I'm so sorry Luke but we need to break up." I began to sob making my whole body shake.

Luke's face is very unreadable, the only thing that shows a single sign of emotional is the tears threatening to escape his eyes. Making him cry is another reason that we need to break up. I don't want anymore sad tears from anyone, anymore.

"No, baby we aren't breaking up. No I c-can't let this happen. You are everything to me I can't lose my everything. Please think this through for me." Luke pleaded to me with tears rolling down his face.

"I actually have thought this through, Luke. We both need to be happy but we're not," I choke out.

"But Francesca I am happy, so very happy. I'm in love with you, so fucking deeply in love with you. My love for you is what makes me live another day, what makes me happy. Now you can't leave me-," he stopped to whimper and let more tears fall.

Doesn't he understand that we can't live like this anymore?

"Luke I love you too the-" Luke quickly cut me off.

"If you love me then why are you leaving me?" He yelled a bit but he didn't mean to I don't think.

I through my arms up in the air as I yelled a little back, "I'm leaving what we have behind because I don't want to be in pain anymore. I'm so sick and tired of seeing both of us in pain, Luke."

He ignored everything I just said and stared at my newly bandage wrist. "No you didn't, baby no please tell me you didn't. You promised me you wouldn't do that anymore!" He loudly sobbed through every word.

I'm making this worse, so much worse. What the hell was thinking, not wearing a long sleeve?

"Luke I'm so sorry but I didn't want to break my promise. I needed to release the deep sad thoughts that raked through my body. I just-," he cuts me off again.

"Franky, sweetheart," he sighed into his hands. "Promises can be broken sometimes but this is different. I won't let you harm yourself anymore. I know I said that last time but I'm coming home. You need me right now just like I need you. We aren't going to end this, ever. I'm buying a plane ticket now, fuck this damn tour," He continues.

"Luke no you are not coming home until tour is over. You are not getting on a plane." I bluntly state, he needs to know that I am serious.

"Okay fine if that's what you want, but we aren't breaking up. Listen to me, you are everything love is to me, I can't just lose you. I love you." He chokes out.

"Luke I'm so sorry I have to do this. Always remember that I love you." I smile at him for one last time and begin to shut my laptop.

"Baby no! Please don't leave me!" Is what I hear him yell but its to late.

My laptop is shut.

My phone instantly starts ringing, Luke's call me.

Ignore.

Then my phone just dings once.

Baby Penguin
12:34am: I will forever love you, I won't stop until you except me again. Be brave for me baby girl. Your crazy penguin loves you.

Goodbye Luke.

A/N: cries in a corner...alone. I worked so hard on you too why did you do this to me!?

Jk I did this shit lol.

ONE MORE CHAPTER YOU GUYS WTF.

WELL ANYWAYS...PENGUIN JR. LOVE YOU ALL BYE!