Leaving Me

Chapter 23

THIS GIF OF EVAN/TATE OMG AHS HAS ME WIPPED LATELY (TRIGGER WARNING)

Ashton: (thats right ;)

I am finally home after school...thank god. Not even greeting my mum, I just go straight to my room. I open the door to my room and throw myself on my twin size bed. Which quiet frankly is getting a little to small, considering my height. Running both of my hands through my hair makes me realize what a stressful day today was.

I had so many tests today and I am pretty sure I failed them all. I failed them all for one reason...I'm really distracted because of Luke and Franky. I'm the one that should be with Franky right now.

Luke doesn't know how I feel about her and I won't let him know. .maybe, I don't know what to do. He needs her to be happy but the thing is I'm not. Luke has been so positive lately, I love it. I just want Franky in my life the way Luke has her.

I mean sure she treats me like a really great friend but I just don't know what to do.

As long as I known her, every day my feeling grow stronger and stronger, its eating me alive.

I wish she loved me as much as I loved her.

I punch The head board of my bed out of complete frustration. I'm so god damn alone, with my dad leaving and Franky I can't take this shit anymore.

I leave my bedroom and go my bathroom just to the left of my room. I get to my bathroom and find my shaving razor. I take out the blades by breaking the blue razor in half.

1 for being weak enough to do this again.

2 For Franky not loving me.

3 For my dad

4 A straight cut down my arm to end all the pain.

There's so much blood, thank God. Better lock the door so I will die this time.

I'm so dizzy..here it is.. This is me...finally happy. I slam myself onto the floor, I can't hold myself up anymore. I can feel myself getting weaker by the second.

The pile of blood around me is getting bigger by the minute. Please god just take me already please.

Something, someone is in front of me in this tiny devastating bathroom. They are getting closer to me. Is it the kiss of death? Is it my time to go?

I finally make out the figure that has come toward me, my breath is taken away.

Addie? Is that you?

"Ashton, yeah it's me...w-what is happening to you. Did you do this to your self?"

I have to be going soon, this can't be happening.

"Go away who ever you are, please go away. Your not Addie, Addie is dead."

What's going on?

"Your right Ashton I am dead. I have been watching over Luke, Calum, Michael, and now this precious Franky"

The mention of her name makes me weaker.

"I don't understand what's happening."

"That's okay Ashton you don't have to. But a thing that you need to understand is that you don't need to die. Your to important to my brother, this will ruin him."

"Not everything is about him Addie. He is the reason why I fucking did this!"

"Ash calm down. I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you. Let me rephrase...the boys need you."

"I can't live like this anymore."

"If you have given up Ashton that's fine. But please don't blame Luke for this. The boys care about you so much. You can get through this Ashton. But I have to go now. I've done all I can for now. I love you Ash."

"No Addie don't go please-" she's gone.

I don't want to die, Addie is right the boys do need me.

"Mum, mum please hurry!"

That took out the rest of my energy that I had left in me. What have I done? Before anything else, everything stops.

Everything goes black.

A/N: omg I cried writing this. Major drama is going to come up soon. You have been warned. Also its summer I can update more now. Maybe twice a week? But I'm sorry this chapter was SOOOO short but I figured I would make the ending like that. Okay yeah until next time! P.s thank you so fucking much for all the reads, I love you all so much! Okay by love you!