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Dearest,

Heartbreaker.

Maybe I should stop calling

you the heartbreaker

and it's you who should start

calling me like that.

I'm sorry.

God, Ryder I'm so sorry.

You weren't

supposed to see that

and that wasn't supposed to happen.

That really wasn't supposed to happen.

I tried to explain it to you

but you just wouldn't listen.

I know it's not a valid excuse

but I was waiting for you at the bleachers

when he came out of nowhere.

He covered my eyes

and at first I thought it was you,

until he spoke and kissed me.

We fell onto the floor

with him on top of me,

kissing me.

I didn't kiss him back

but I didn't stop him either.

I'm sorry.

I was telling him to get off of me

when you looked at us

in that compromising position.

And well, you know what happened next.

What you said really did hurt me,

but that's okay,

I suppose I deserve it.

But I really did mean what I said.

I do love you, Ryder.

I've loved you

since that very first night,

and I would even say that

I loved you before that too.

I've loved you for a really long time,

and I know you love me too.

Please don't let this ruin

what we could've been.

-me.

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