drown × calum hood [complete]

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Chapter Twenty-Six: The loneliness

calum iN A CAR!!! also, please read a/n at the end

Dedicated to: shuckings bc you're from nz too ☺

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"I guess this is the last time I'll see you so... I just want you to know that I love you. I always have. I-I always will and noth-nothing will ever change that."

His voice kept cracking and changing pitch. It was thick, full of emotion. Heartbreaking.

Tears streamed from his eyes as he stared at the pale, lifeless body on the white hospital bed. Tubes and hospital machines surrounded her. Her arms rested at her sides. Her face was pale. Her heart was beating - almost barely, though.

"Sir, I'm afraid visiting hours are up."

"One more minute. Please." He was pleading them. Begging. Begging for just one more minute. One last time to see her face before it disappeared from his mind.

"Just one more minute," the nurse said before leaving.

"I'm so stupid for letting you do this to yourself. It's all my fault."

He rested his head on the hospital bed and looked up at her. Even near death's door, he still thought she was beautiful.

"Your minute's up, Sir."

He exhaled heavily, a single tear landing on her cheek.

"I love you, Haley."

And just as he shut the door, all be heard was a long, ongoing noise piercing through the room.

And he thought, She's dead.

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It was happening again. The girl he loved, in hospital. His fault. Again. Everything was his fault. All his fault.

His fault Haley got put into hospital because he didn't remind her to take her pills. His fault because he didn't remind her to stay away from... him.

She had been an insomniac, previously abused by her boyfriend. Sixteen and pregnant. Had an abortion. Gotten abused again. Came to Calum, covered in black, blue and purple.

Her sleeping pills had never helped her though, and he knew this. She would lie and say she had taken them. At night he would hold her close and try to get her to sleep but she would shrug it off and say, "I'm fine."

"I'm fine," didn't mean she was really "fine". She had been holding in all her problems, about her being abused, about being pregnant, about having the abortion.

He never got told until it was too late.

Bella could've been the same. Haley was an insomniac. Bella was anorexic. Although it was "only a disorder" as Bella called it, it wasn't something to be dealed with lightly. It was a serious topic.

He looked up at the ceiling and sighed. A coma was worse than her dying. Knowing she was alive, by couldn't see him. Couldn't hear him. Couldn't respond to him.

It hurt. A lot.

He hadn't showered for two days now, too scared to leave her side in case what happened to Haley happened to her. He didn't need a repeat.

He would do whatever it took just to see her eyes one last time before he could never see them again.

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yeeeeee here's your update

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we're currently writing a teen wolf/ ashton fanfic so you can go check that out when it's published :-)

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