guardian angel || the outsiders fanfic♡

thirty one.

***Dally's POV***

I walk to the Curtis house after a long night at Buck's. I drank all of my sorrows away last night, then went back to my house early this morning. Most of Alex's clothes were gone, but she left her Winston sweatshirt. I was sure to grab it before heading to the Curtis house, just in case she was there.

I felt like shit. I felt like a bug that had just been stepped on, and I still do. Alex was right, all I ever do is go out and party. And come to think of it, most of the times I go, I just wish I was with her. And the fact that I physically and mentally hurt her wasn't okay with me. There is still blood stains on the floor and the coffee table.

I guess I just didn't know what to do. I'm so in love with her it isn't even real anymore. I've never had feelings like these before, and they're making me do stupid things.

I just miss her so much. I want her to come home and be mine again. I've been a total wreck, I smell like alcohol and sweat and old tears. Plus, I haven't changed my clothes. There's beard stubble everywhere and my hair is all over the place.

I reach the Curtis house and walk in. I look up and meet eyes with her.

I open my mouth to say something, but she takes off up the stairs with Victoria close behind her. My heart sinks.

She looked as broken as I was.

I walk over and sit on the couch, head in hands; the same position I've been in for almost 24 hours.

***Alex's POV***

I run upstairs as soon as I see him. I hear footsteps behind me as I burst into Ponyboy and Soda's room. I stop running and my hard breaths turn into sobs.

I feel a hand on my shoulder and I turn to see Victoria. Immediately I hug her, and she hugs me back.

"Why does he have to be here?" I say against her shoulder. She begins to softly rub my back.

"I don't know honey," Victoria says.

"I can't see him right now. I'd just bust out in tears. What do I do?" I ask her. She may be 14, but she's one of the best friends I've ever had.

"Alex, be strong. He looked so run down and sad. Ever think maybe he feels awful too?" Victoria asks. I shake my head and try to stop crying. I've been crying too much these days.

"Let's just hang out up here, okay? We'll come down for dinner, then you can sleep on Johnny and I's floor. Sound good?" Victoria asks. I nod my head and we sit on the bed.

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About 3 hours later, Darry calls everyone for dinner. I groan and slowly stand up. Victoria and I were doing each other's hair while we waited.

We slowly walk down the stairs and I notice everyone is in the dining room. No one seems to see the tension between Dallas and me except Victoria.

Darry puts out dinner for the gang and Victoria and I talk with Kayla and Ellie. Kayla sits next to me and keeps her eyes on Dallas. Apparently, his eyes don't leave me at all during dinner.

After dinner, I help Lauren with the dishes, then sit by Kayla. Dallas and Johnny walk outside for a smoke, and Kayla pulls me upstairs with her.