Shawn Mendes Imagines Part 1

Give me love Part 1

  Y/n P.O.V

I love shawn so much, and I know he loves me the same amount. But I have the feeling that I'm nothing compared to his fans, I mean they've been with him for years, me only a year. You can see the love he has for them, every night he goes up on the stage, his mind blending in with their cheers and smiles. It makes me happy, but it differs my self confidence, I feel he will never love me the way he loves them, I know I've said it already, but it means a lot to me. I cry when he's not home, because I'm scared he'll dump me, leave me for a fan or something. I am a fan, but I don't think he sees me like that anymore.
Sitting in the bathroom crying continuously until I hear the front door open and footsteps get louder until they enter our bedroom "y/n, y/n baby, you here?" Before I can reply the bathroom door opens and shawn looks down at my broken and drained body, so exhausted from 1 hour of crying. He instantly bends down and pulls my face to his and my body into his chest. "Baby, what wrong? What's happened? Are you ok?, are you hurt?" He spits out loads of questions, whilst caressing my face.
I cried even more from his voice sounding so distressed "I can't, I don't know, I can't Shawn"
"Shh, shh, shh, calm down, what's wrong?what can't you do? what don't you know?" I should just say it, I know I should. It could hurt him, he might dump me, he might shout at me. Just get it done with, if he leaves me, he never loved me. Squeezing my eyes and letting it all out "I'm scared that your going to leave me for a fan and that you don't love me as much as you love them I see it in your eyes and I don't know if you actually do love me and it seems as though you've forgotten how big of a fan I was and I don't know, I'm just.." I stop take a deep breath and start crying. "You said that very quick baby" I keep my head down "but I heard every word, I'm so sorry you feel like that, but you know something, everyone else see the way I look at you."