Genius (ohshc x reader fanfic)

Chapter 15: Lies part 1

My eyes flutter open to reveal gray...my ceiling always looked gray on this day.

The colors seemed to fade away from life...everything...dull.

I tried to remember the thrill I had two days before, the day I had 'emotion,' just to try to cheer myself up slightly. But, it just didn't work. My face etched into a deeper frown remembering that day when I actually had 'fun.'

I couldn't tell you how hard it was to show that much emotion in a day.

Every smile I put on, made a pang in my heart, as if it was slowly burning it away. I didn't want to worry Haru anymore, I wanted her to know I was growing out of my shell, that I wasn't pondering over the past anymore...I still am. I just, can't forget. I can't forget how I was too late. I could've saved my parents from their hidden suffering.

Using the little strength I had that morning, I pushed myself up and leaned against my bed post, replaying the events that taken place that afternoon with Kuro when I returned home.

I remember that the only emotions that returned, the ones that hasn't disappeared with every other, was regret and pain.

It was obvious to see it plastered across my face.

•••Flashback two days•••

Kuro sat on the couch watching some sort of cooking show when I entered the house with a jingle. He didn't notice me until I made a thump sound when I fell onto my bottom, leaning against our entrance's doorway.

I remember...I felt dead inside. My head spun, my stomach churned, and my vision dulled.

Kuro popped his head to my direction, jumping up with alarm, the TV forgotten.

"Maru!"

That's all I heard before I blacked out.

•••

I wake up to find Kuro sitting in a chair next to my bed.

His eyes were trained on the window, pondering on something.

"K-ku...ro."

My throat was dry and cracked. It was painful to listen to.

Kuro instantly became alert and active, supporting my back so I could sit upright to drink my water he pre-prepared.

I grabbed the cup from Kuro, my hands shaking and looking sickly pale.

After taking a few sips, I turned my gaze back onto Kuro, the glass cup still in my hands.

"How long was I out."

I made no more effort for emotion, not even for Kuro. It didn't bother him though, he knew I was always like that on this certain week.

"Only for a few hours-you won't be able to go to school this next week...I know."

We didn't speak after that. Our eyes never leaving the other. The tense air only thickened when I finally broke away from our stare, just to speak sullen words.