Broken Charms

Falling Apart In Montreal: Part Three

“The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.”

― F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby

---Harry---

“Hey, Angel! It’s me! I just wanted to tell you that I love you so so so much. You are the love of life and I’m fucking proud of you for dancing tonight. You are going to rock the stage. you just looked at me. You are so beautiful. You look like a princess with your red dress and your curled hair. You look like you escaped from a fairytale. You deserve all the love and in the world and I just wanted to say that… well, if ever there is a tomorrow when we’re not together there is something you must  always remember, you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem and smarter that you think.  But the most important part I want you to promise me that if there ever comes a day we can’t be together, keep me in your heart and I’ll stay there forever. I love you.”

I left a message on Astrid’s voicemail while she actually standing a few feet away from me getting ready to out on stage. it sounded dump but I wanted to leave something, a proof of some kind, of our love. I had the most sickening feeling in my stomach since we arrived here, that tonight something was going to happen and I was afraid that whatever happened could easily break me and Astrid apart. God! I loved her so much. I knew we promised to each other to work hard for keeping this relationship, but sometimes things didn’t go the way you expected them to.

When we went up on stage that night, everything was different, something about the way Astrid was dancing a few feet away from me to every song we sang made the show more intimate. It felt like Astrid and I were the only people at the stadium and every now and then she would glance at me and I would stare at her and I would lose my train just by looking at her. it was the most entertaining show. Every time Astrid did a flip or a twist the crowd would cheer and go insane about her. There was a tweet tonight asking us to introduce to the crowd the choreographer and invite her up on stage and I was so excited about. Maybe we could tell everyone right that moment that we were dating. Tonight, everything was about to change.

We’re almost half way through the show, singing One Way Or Another and I honestly couldn’t wait for the Last First Kiss to start. I got to dance with her then and I knew that in the video-wall there would be a moment when the camera would be focused solely to me and Astrid. Maybe I could steal a kiss from her then.

The last notes of the songs were being played and it was time for Astrid to do the most stunning flip of the night. She was nervous about it of course but I knew she was going to do just fine. The boys and I were sitting on the stairs of the stage and the whole stage was empty so that she would do the flip.

All the lights were focused on her and as the last notes were being played everything seemed like it was in slow motion. Astrid started running to do the flip but when she pressed her fingers on the ground to jump for the flip I knew my life would change forever.

People said that when you were about to die you would see your whole pass in front of your eyes. Well, in that moment I saw what my life would have been if Astrid’s fingers had never touched the stage. In that split second I saw her smile and endless walks in places and beaches we never got to visit. I saw her green eyes reflected back at me. I saw her whispering ‘I Love You’ over and over again. I saw her laying her head against my chest and the feeling of serenity that filled my heart almost knocked me of my feet.

But after that moment passed everything did changed. When Astrid’s hands pressed to the stage and she was about to lift her feet high, she slipped. She tried to support he weight in her hands since her legs were not longer touching the ground but it was too late. she did the flip as best as she could and when I thought she did great, all hell broke loose.