Dear Y/n I know this is hard for you it's hard on me too. I can't believe my drinking has gotten this bad and I'm so sorry. I let my job and alcohol get in the way of our love and family.
I don't want to play this game no more I don't wanna play it.I don't want to stay 'round here no more,because if I do there will be many temptations that I know I will fail and once again ruin the thing I love the most...you.I don't wanna stay here in this place anymore it's cold and boring I can't live here if your not with me. I'm surprised I have mad it this far honestly. It feels like rain on a Monday morning,like pain that just keeps on going on.
Look at all the hate they keep on showing when I mean by they I mean the fans. You can tell the clearly sided with you in this whole 'Harry the crazy drunk who yells at his girlfriend over little things to nothing'I don't want to see that.Look at all the stones they keep on throwing I don't want to feel that.It's like Sun that will keep on burning I just realized I used to be so discerning...oh. In my recovery I promise that I will do better.It feels like I'm a soldier at war and I'm losing the war to alcohol.I have broken down walls that I never though I would.I defined the meaning of our love and the meaning of staying clean.
I designed a new plan of staying clean and healthy.My recovery won't be easy I can tell you that much Y/n hopefully you haven't moved on just yet.In the sound of the sea in the oceans of me.I defined and I designed my life just for you and our future life I swear.
My recovery is very important to me I will do anything for you even if it means being away from you for months on end.Keep soaring!Keep song-writing! Is what I remember you always chanting to me when I was down and now it's my national anthem.
My recovery will hopefully recover our broken relationship and if it doesn't I might just die.
And I can hear the choirs keep on singing is that weird to say...probably sorry.
Tell me what they're saying are my band mates angry is my family mad probably I don't care though I would be angry to I'm a disappointment.And I can hear the phone,it keeps on ringing I don't want to answer I'm scared that it gonna be your voice and it sounds broken and hoarse I couldn't deal with that and do something I will regret later.
I know that I used to listen and I know I've become dismissive I'm sorry for that.
In my recovery I want you to stay strong for me even though you have been doing that for months of me being a drunk fuck.
I'm a soldier at war so please be there when I come back.
I have broken down walls just for you and me
I defined and I designed a way for us to be happy again.
My recovery will hopefully mend your broken and bruised heart.
In the sound of the sea hopefully your thinking of me and if your not that's fine too.
In the oceans of me I'm close to drowning so can you be the one to save me?
I defined and I designed a way for me not to be a fucktard.
My recovery I will Keep soaring and Keep song-writing just for you and nobody else.
My recovery will be the death of me even if it means me relapsing.
In my recovery.I'm a soldier at war.I have broken down walls and will continue to even when I'm with or with out you
From Harry Styles
