How do you know when you lost the one you truly love? Well I can tell you this by experience. I've lost everything in a matter of months. I lost my wife and children,I lost my life,I lost my money but the real thing that I lost was myself. I lost myself to drugs,sex,and alcohol. I know what you are thinking how could you leave your own blood for a quick fix. Well to answer that I don't know,I truly don't know how I could let my desires get in the way of my true judgement and now I'm regretting every second of it. The alcohol turned me into a monster. You wanna know why because for the first time ever I put my hands on my sons. I'm a ruthless monster that deserves to be shot and killed but sadly that is not legal in the state of California. God I'm a idiot for whoever is reading this tell my wife that I love her and that I'm sorry and to my sons to stay strong and be daddy's soldiers.
From~ Zayn Javvad Malik
It's been 2 weeks since that letter was written and 1 since he tried committing suicide in the rehab facility. He was now under supervision in the mental facility. He now lies in his bed looking up at the cement walls wishing to God that everything he did could be took back but it couldn't all the pain and suffering he put on the family will forever be there. He cried numerous nights until his body couldn't take it and pass out from exhaustion. Back at the Malik residence everything has been great they are finally smiling and not in sadness or worrying were their father was at during all times at the night. There was no more Y/n crying into Liam's shoulder after all the pressure of being a mother who also has to worry about her husband who goes M.I.A all the time. Everything was good until she was sent a letter by the Dalton's Mental Facility of North California. She opened it curious of why she was sent it. She tore it open as the kids played in the game room was Zayn's old art room which they painted over and let Justin use it as his canvas.
Dear Mrs.Malik,
On September 10,2016 your husband Zayn Javvad Malik had attempted suicide and failed at the Willards Rehab Center. He had wrote a series of notes for you and your children. He has requested for you to see him but only if you wish too. To let you know he doesn't eat which is causing him to be very thin we are suspecting anorexia,he doesn't get sleep unless he is crying,and he is always talking about how he hears voices calling him worthless,lowlife,and man-whore. If you want to contact us at this number xxx-xxx-xxxx.
From~Dr.Phil
Y/n got the paper crumbling it up throwing it on the floor going to play with her 4 boys. Justin had left going to the kitchen to get his sippy cup when he stumbled across a crumbled piece of white paper. He picked it up and looked at it with confused eyes.
"BUBBA COME HERE PWEASE!" He yells to Liam who was sitting on the sofa playing on the Xbox.
"Here I come love!" He screams. He jumps over the couch and runs to the tiny voice.
"What's up JuJu?" He ask his eyes averting to the paper that was in Justin's hands.
"What's that bumblebee?" He ask Justin shrugged his shoulders giving him that paper.
"Dats why I called you in here duh!" He says trying to roll his eyes.
"My bad!" Liam said throwing his hands in defense. Liam started to read the paper his smile turning into a frown.
"What the fuck?" He says a little to loud as Justin started to repeat it.
"Fuck!Fuck!Fuck! Wait what does fuck mean Bubba?"
"Um it's a bad word so don't say it okay!"
"Otay!"
"How about we go on a little mission to Dalton's Mental Facility?" He ask picking up his little brother.
"What's that?"
"Where daddy is?" The sound of it burning Liam's mouth as if he though of that piece of shit was his father.
"Oh DADDY!" He screamed happily.
"Shh...don't let mommy know okay I will come get you later tonight so we can go on that secret mission!"
"Yay!!"
"Double Agent Justin you may now leave but you must promise to stay quiet and not tell anyone"
"Pwomise!" Justin scampered off to his room a smile on his face. Liam was smiling to but for different reasons of course.
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To be continued
