A Chicago PD Au fanfiction | Hollow

Nineteen

I don't even have time to walk by the front desk before Jennifer grab my arm and pull me aside. She look slightly worried and it concerns me. We walk into the room that is across from the desk, and she close the door behind us.

"I-" she begin to say but she hesitate "I've talked to Peyton, I'm seeing her tonight" she say.

I can hear how she isn't sure about it, I think she know it's a bad idea and that she shouldn't have told anyone. But still I can see a glimpse of fire inside her, she's going to do it.

"Jen" I say with disappointment "you know you can't do that" I continue.

"Jay, this is the only shot we have" she say.

That may be true, she's the only one who can talk to them but it's dangerous. We never know what Peyton has in mind. Peyton knows Jen is with us they could easily take Jen and use it as their advantage.

"You can't tell anyone, okay?" She ask.

I'm stuck in my own thoughts, I don't answer because it doesn't hit me that I should.

"Okay?" She ask again.

I wake up from the thought I was stuck in. This can be called panic attack 2.0. It's the kind of panic attack you get when you know what's right to do but you're still choosing between your heart and brain.

"Yeah" I answer with hesitation.

No, wait, I should have said no. Shit what do I do? Shit.

"Pinky?"

I hold up my pinky and then I rush out, out from the room and out from the building to get some fresh air so I can think clearly. What have I done? I can't let Jennifer take stuff like this in her own hands, she can't make it on her own.

I have to tell Voight, I'm telling Voight, now, right now. It's not nice and she's going to kill me but I'm going to go and tell Voight, now. It's easy, just do it, it's like counting down from three.

I walk in again, the first thing I see is Jennifer who is happily talking to Platt. I kind of sneak, but still normally looking, behind her so she won't see me and make me feel more guilt about what I'm going to do. When I'm past her I quickly open the locked metal door and rush up the stairs. I aim straight to Voight's office.

"Jay I–" Erin begin to say.

"Not now" I cut her off and walk into Voight's office and close the door behind me.

Voight look up from his paperwork and put it down on his desk, which is already full with more paperwork.

"Eh... Jennifer" I say but I stop to take a breath "Jennifer is seeing Peyton tonight and I kind of promised not to tell anyone and now I don't now what to do" I continue.

Wow, I could hear the fear and how unsure I was. I really felt Jen's punches in my stomach and how her heart is being turned inside out. I know she trust me a lot, after this she won't trust me at all.

"I'll take care of it" Voight says and get back to his paperwork.

I can breathe out. Voight got it all handled and I don't have to think about it anymore. Now what's left is when she find out I lied to her. This was the last time she trusted me, great.