A Chicago PD Au fanfiction | Hollow

Twentyseven

-Jay's pov-

I've been staring up at the empty, cold, white ceiling for more than an hour now. My thoughts can't leave Jen behind, it feels like she's going to do something bad even though Voight and Al made sure she never went to see Peyton. I know she's in good hands when she's with Voight and Al but somewhere deep within, something is telling me she's out on dangerous waters. 

Erin, who's been sleeping for more than an hour now turn around in the bed toward me and her hand search its way underneath the blanket and onto my cold chest.  It stays there. 

"You awake?" A hoarse and almost mute voice says.

"Actually, I never really fell asleep" I reply.

Erin look up at me and her eyes makes me melt insde, she's so beautiful and her beauty can make anything melt. 

"Call her, you know she'll answer" She say.

I'm not actually sure if that's true or not, Jen is really mad at me and she doesn't really like to talk to people when she's in a bad mood, it's always been that way. 

Somehow, even though I don't believe in it, Erin made me believe it's a good idea to call Jen.  Maybe it's because I trust Erin and believe she's a very wise woman.

Maybe I should call her, what could seriously go wrong. There's nothing that possibly could go wrong over a phonecall.  The absolutely worst thing that could happen has to be that she becomes even more angry at me and hang up, but that isn't so bad.

I reach for my phone that should be in my jeans, which are thrown somewhere on the floor beneath me. When my fingertips meet my jeans I search for the pocket and soon find the phone. I scroll through my contacts and find Jennifer Kaye.

I call her. I have to wait, wait a little bit more, wait even more, and a little bit more again; then I give up. She's not going to answer. Though, a question I need to ask myself is if she's not answering because she's angry or because something went wrong.

"She won't answer" I say to Erin, who probably already noticed that.

Erin crawl closer to me and our bodies get contact again, she's warmer than I am so It's quite cozy. I wrap my arm around her and kiss her forehead.

"Should I be worried?" I ask Erin.

She look at me and raise her eyebrows like I'm stupid. I look at her and smile embarassed.

"Since when do we have to worry about Jennifer?" She ask and smile back to me.

I stare up at the roof again and think of all the worst scenarios that could be happening right now. I know it's just a feeling from within but sometimes the feeling is right, and what if the feeling is right this time.

"Don't look so sad" She say and poke the tip of my nose with her forefinger and pull me closer into a hug.

In the darkness our cuddles feels like a touch of heaven, warm, cozy, together. Erin is the one who gives me hope for the future, she makes me keep fighting for what I love and care about. She makes me want to do the stuff I do, she makes my life worth living.

I wish I could extend the night so I could enjoy this moment a little while longer than the few hours we have left this night. I love Erin, I truly do.