I am yours. {#Wattys2016}

37.

A/N: I started this thing called 'In the Rhythm', go check it out!

I woke up in the middle of the night in a sudden jolt with tears pouring out of my eyes. Nothing startled me. I just needed to get out of the dream. I didn't even realise that tears were coming out of my eyes. I didn't realise that I was sniffling. In my head I felt perfectly fine but clearly that wasn't true.

Scott also woke up due to my jolt. "Avi?" He asked me with worry clear in his tone. "Are you ok?" I shook my head in response. "Tell me. What's wrong?" He enveloped me in a hug.

"You won't leave me lonely, will you?" I asked shakily.

"Of course I won't" He responded. "Where is this even coming fr-"

"Promise me" I interrupted.

"I-I promise I won't leave you lonely. Why would you think I wouldn't?" He asked with slight confusion.

"I don't want to be lonely anymore, Scott. I've been lonely basically my whole life and I don't want to be anymore. I had a dream about me being 17 on my birthday and being alone and bruised feeling so much pain. No one was there for me and I just wanted to know that you weren't going to leave me when this is over" I answered trying to stop my tears.

"When what is over?" He questioned still as confused as before.

"When my recovery is over, you'll just go" I sighed, wiping my tears.

"What made you think I was leaving once you got better?" He asked with slight anger in his tone. "I'm not leaving you. I'm not going to leave you. I shouldn't have left you in the past and I'm so sorry got that. That was out of my control but now. Now it's in my control and I choose to stay with you. I will stay with you. You don't need to worry about being alone anymore" He reassured me. I was touched by what he said that it caused me to cry even more.

"I love you...so much" I spoke breathlessly, trying to calm my self down.

"I love you too" He kissed me on the head. "Now lets get back to sleep" He let go of me and went back to sleep.

What even were we?

Were we dating? We fucked. Many times. But we still call each other best friends. I said I love you and he said it back. Was it a platonic 'I love you' or did he mean it? My mind was confused for no reason. Maybe I just needed to sleep off this confusion.