jupiter.
i felt numb. there was no feeling pulsing through my body. i couldn't move, couldn't speak, couldn't feel. i was just there.
i continued to stare straight ahead, the light from the bathroom shining on my bruised body. the softness of the rug that i had been previously gripping now felt rough under my fingertips.
i began to grow cold, but it didn't matter. i couldn't feel it. all i felt was pain. my heart was rising painfully in my throat, begging to be let out.
after a while, i stood up. i knew jason would soon come looking for me.
grabbing my ripped bloody underwear, i slowly walked them towards the garbage. pain shot through me, but i couldn't feel it. i couldn't feel anything.
after throwing them away, i walked back into the bedroom. i grabbed jason's shirt, slipping it over my head. slowly, i slipped his pair of jogging pants over my legs. they were way too big but i didn't care. i didn't care about anything at the moment.
i stopped near the bed, staring at the rug that was twisted across the hardwood floor. i continued to stare at it, hoping just a twinge of emotion would flow through me. i soon realized that it wasn't going to come, at least not today.
i looked at the door before shaking my head. i couldn't go back out there with all those people. i wouldn't be able to handle it.
sighing, i peeled the covers back. i slowly climbed into bed, pulling the covers on top of me. laying there, i waited and waited for sleep to come over me.
but it never came.
jason.
i nodded my head towards the person who was speaking to me, my mind elsewhere. where was jupiter?
"yeah so i was think-"
i held my hand up. "excuse me."
stepping into the living room, my eyes searched for jupiter. i frowned as i didn't see her head full of curls anywhere in sight.
i walked towards the front room. she wasn't there either. turning around to go look around some more, i noticed ashlyn.
"hey, ashlyn."
she turned to me, a small smile on her face. "what's up?"
"do you know where jupiter is?"
ashlyn nodded, taking a sip of her drink. "we ran into each other and the cups in my hand spilled all over here shirt. she told me to tell you she was going to take a shower."
i nodded my head but then ashlyn furrowed her eyebrows. i frowned. "what?"
she sighed, a worried look on her face. "that was about an hour ago."
worry shot through my body as i turned towards the stairs. i quickly made my way up, skipping a few to get there faster.
walking towards my bedroom, i swung the door open. i looked around quickly before noticing jupiter balled up in the covers in my bed.
