Heartbreak Girl

Chapter 20~ No Matter What

It had been almost three weeks since Lane and I had confessed to liking each other, but nothing was happening. We weren't dating or anything, in fact, it seemed like we were spending less time together, like today, he was supposed to hang out with me today, but he bailed. So, I just sat outside my window, on the roof. Sometimes I did that, when I wanted to be alone.

I looked up the road and I saw someone walking down the road. It was Mitch. He was walking past the house and then he saw me. He smiled and waved and then looked very confused. That sad feeling came over me, the feeling I always get when something happens that he should know about. I smiled at him and waved back, trying to push the feeling away.

"What are you doing up there?" He yelled.

"This where I always come when I want to be alone." I yelled.

"I'm coming up!" He said.

He ran up to the porch and walked in. I smiled to myself, that's exactly what the old Mitch would've done and I was so happy that he was coming up to be with me.I heard my door open and then he came out on the roof and sat beside me.

"Wow, this is high." He said.

"Yeah, you were always scared of heights."

"Oh, well at least I've remembered something." He said.

"Yeah, you've been remembering a lot, actually." I said.

"My parents said that too, so that's a good thing. But enough of me, what's going on with you?" He asked.

I just shrugged. "Nothing. I'll be okay."

"Nope, you're not getting off that easy. You said that you come out here when you want to be alone. So why do you want to be alone?"

"It's stupid and selfish." I said.

"It's about Lane, isn't it?" He asked.

"How'd you know?"

"Because, you're here and he's not."

He was sounding just like himself, because he would just say something like that. He was so right. Lane should be here, he should be the one here with me.

"Why is this happening?" I asked.

"I don't know. He should be here. He should be here instead of me, but he's not. He obviously doesn't realize what he has."

"What does that mean?" I asked.

"It means, that he doesn't care about you like he should."

"But he does. I think, honestly, I don't know anymore. I thought when he told me that he liked me, that things would be different. We would be together, but we've just been growing apart." I said.

"Maybe that's a sign. Maybe, you shouldn't be together."

"But I really thought that we would be so good together."

"Well, sometimes you're given what you want, just to see that it's not what you need."

I just looked at him. Where was this coming from? This was a little too deep for Mitch, but at the same time, it made sense. It really made a lot of sense and I didn't know what to say.

"Wow, that was deep. But I still just don't know. I feel so happy when I'm with him."

"Just give him some time, maybe he'll come around."

"I hope so." I said.

I leaned my head on his shoulder and he put his arm around me. I just leaned on him and I was so thankful for him, even through all of this, he was still by my side.

"Thanks." I said.

"For what?"

"For being here. Through all of this, one thing hasn't changed."

"What's that?" He asked.

I lifted my head up and looked at him.

"You and me." I said.

"What do you mean by that?" He asked.

"You've still been there for me. Out of all of us you've been the one that has taken this the best. Like, you haven't acted like you're discouraged or upset. It's honestly been amazing to me."

He dropped his head, like he was ashamed or something.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"Honestly, I have been really discouraged lately. It kills me that I can't remember things. Especially things about us. I know that it hurts you when I don't remember."

"Aw Mitch it's okay, I understand." I said.

"But I hate when you get that look on your face."

"What look?" I asked.

"Whenever I can't remember something, you just get this look on your face, like you're sad and disappointed and it really hurts, because I know that I'm the one person who you could always come to, who was always there for you, but now...now I can't remember any of the things that we used to do."

I could feel tears stinging the back of my eyes and I knew that if I said anything, I would break. I had no idea that he felt this way or that I had been showing my emotions so much. Yeah, it was hard for me. I missed all of our inside jokes and all the memories, but now it was time to start over. I needed him to know that.

"Mitch, this whole thing has been hard on all of us, but we can get through it. I do miss how things used to be, but now is the time for us to start over, to make new memories. So there is no reason for  you to feel bad anymore. I will always be here for you."

"I'm glad," He said." I will always be there for you too. You can still call or text me whenever you want and I'll be there."

"Thanks, Mitch. I know I can."

I never wanted things to change between us. No matter what, he would always be my best friend.

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Sorry it's taken me a while to update, but life happens. These two are so cute and really need to realize that they're meant to be together, like come on guys! Please vote and comment. Love ya!