Sound Of Madness (a Ronnie Radke fanfiction) •EDITING**

the after effects of warped tour

I looked in the mirror and watched the blood flow out, running down my stomach and dripping onto the bathroom floor. Jacky and Ronnie, if they saw this I don't know what they would do they would be disappointed, sad, mad, and confused as to why I was doing this . still. after all the things they have done to help me, to help me stop hurting myself I go and do this.

I cleaned up the blood off the floor and my stomach and wrapped my self in a fluffy dark blue towel. I walked out of the bathroom and crossed the hallway to my room. I closed the door and locked it.

I walked over to my Ihome and plugged my phone into it. I scroll through the artist and tap on pierce the veil.

"Let's go!

I kissed the scars on her skin

I still think you're beautiful

And I don't ever want to lose my best friend.

I screamed out, "God, you vulture,

Bring her back or take me with her"

Tear it down, break the barricade

I want to see what sound it makes

I hate this flavor with a passion and I fucking hate the aftertaste

How does it feel? How does it feel?

Well it feels like I'm on fire!

Wake up, I know you can hear me.

Make me a promise here tonight, love like a tidal wave

Dreamless in early graves, I never want it to be this way

The chemicals will bring you home again

This is it, when it's done, we can say that,

When it's sudden death we fight back

Pretend like I don't entice you

I've seen you circling the sky above my head

You traitor

I will never be taken for granted again

Keep digging holes in the desert

Say a prayer for you

I know that you're in pain

But if we die at the same time does it still scare you?

Make me a promise here tonight. Let's go!

Dreamless in early graves, I never want it to be this way

The chemicals will bring you home again

This is it, when it's done, we can say that,

Oh my God we're not gonna make it

We will bring the tidal wave

We will bring the tidal wave

We will bring the tidal wave

We will bring the tidal wave!

We will bring the tidal wave

We will bring the tidal wave

We will bring the tidal wave

And nothing will remain

She's mine

You stay away from her

It's not her time.

'Cause, baby, I'm the one

Who haunts her dreams at night,

Until she's satisfied.

Make me a promise here tonight, love like a tidal wave

Dreamless in early graves, I never want it to be this way

The chemicals will bring you home again

This is it, when it's done, we can say that,

When it's sudden death we fight back!

Fuck it!"

I sang along to every lyric of "a match into water" as I got dressed.

"reya breakfast!" I heard Ronnie yell from the other side of the door.

"okay! be down in a second!" I shouted back.

I finished straightening my hair and added some teal chalk to the tips. I walked out of my room and down to the kitchen where I saw blueberry pancakes on the table and my face lit up. I sat down and took one pancake on my plate and slowly ate it, quickly feeling the nausea from my choice to eat.

I looked down at my food and could literally feel my face turn green.

"reya what's wrong? you look sick" I nodded my head and got up from the table and ran to the bathroom. I threw up my pancake and flushed the toilet, I rinsed out my mouth and looked at my self in the mirror. tears came to my eyes and I could no longer see clearly.

"just an anorexic freak who cuts her self, a wimp" I said into the mirror. I let the tears run free from my eyes and the door opened.

"you are not, don't say that"

"I am, that is all I am" I broke free of Ronnie's arms and walked up to my room with a emotionless face. I locked the door and turned my music up all the way, I can feel the floor vibrating. I drowned out all the noise of the world and stared at the ceiling until I closed my eyes.

I woke up to Jacky shaking me and staring at me with a concerned look in his eyes. I looked away and a tear rolled down my cheek, he wiped it away.

"what's wrong?"

"I don't know" l said, looking away again. he turned my head to make me look at him again snd another tear slipped out. he wiped it away and kissed my forehead.

"you can tell me anything rey, you know that" he said kindly.

I sat up and hugged jacky.

"l know that, l dont know what the fuck is wrong with me besides "alot of things""

" there arent alot of things wrong with you, babe there is nothing wrong with you, you're perfect"

"I wish i could believe that" Jacky sighed and layed down next to me. i turned my head and looked at him.

"rey what happened?" Jacky asked, he picked up my hand and played with my fingers.

"I cant stand myself, i want out. I did it again and i could't keep even one fucking pancake down."

" I know that part, ronnie told me. you did what again?" Jacky asked me and put his hand on my stomach. i winced.

"what?" I shook my head and looked away, out the window.

he pushed my shirt up and saw the nine fresh cuts on my stomach that I made this morning. he pulled my shirt back down and pulled me closer to him. I looked up and saw a tear roll down his cheek. he really does care. seeing him cry made me start crying again.

I lay there on the floor crying in Jacky's arms.