Sound Of Madness (a Ronnie Radke fanfiction) •EDITING**

and you can listen to glass hearts shattering

"Reya get up!" Ronnie yelled into my room from the hallway. I looked at my iPod and it said 12:37 I don't know how I slept so late. I got up and put a tank top on then opened my door to see Ronnie standing there holding willow; she smiled at me and reached towards me so I would take her from Ronnie.

"were you crying?" Ronnie asked me.

"why would you think that?" I know I was, why does he think I was?

"your face is tear stained, your eyes are red and everything."

 I sighed "yes."

"why?" Ronnie questioned me further. I put willow down on the floor and turned around. I left the door open and walked over to my bed. I reached under the corner of the mattress and looked over at Ronnie before I pulled out what I was hiding. his eyes widened and I pulled out the rock. he looked relieved when he saw the rock, he probably thought it was a blade.

"what did you think it was?" I asked in a smart-ass tone.

"you know damn well what" he said sternly.

"no matter how much I wanted and needed to do that last night I didn't, I couldn't I promised you"

"well why didn't you say something Rey? you know you can come talk to me!"

 I shook my head and slipped the smooth stone into my pocket. I fell back on the bed and closed my eyes. a tear slid out of my eye and rolled down the side of my face. footsteps came closer to my bed and the bed sank next to me. I rolled over on my stomach and turned my head towards the person sitting on my bed. I opened my eyes and saw a sad looking Jacky not Ronnie; who I was expecting. I smiled a little but then remembered what happened since he left. the tears returned to my eyes.

one slipped out and he wiped it away.

"jess it is all jess, her fault which means its my fault because you left"

"it's not your fault, why would you think that?"

"because after three month of her being the jess that I know, everything died again. my life died and I got tired of fighting the demons in the world so I joined their side. I am a demon now"

Jacky laid down next to me and wrapped his arm around me just like he used to. he kissed the top of my head.

" you cant let them win, you have to keep fighting. where did the Reya I know go while I was gone?"

"she was killed by society"

"I know she is in here somewhere"

I shook my head and more tears escaped my eyes. I sat up and looked back at Jacky. I stood up and walked over to the window. I should be really happy that Jacky is here but not everything goes like it is  supposed to. nothing has lately. I opened the window and climbed out onto the roof Jacky followed.

the cool late September air hit my skin, it smells good; like rain. the clouds look gloomy and the leafs are blowing around on the ground. just the way I like it

I stood up and looked over the neighbor hood. I wish it could stay this way forever.

"nothing gold can stay" ([quote from the outsiders], if you've never heard that before)

"what?"

"it's a quote from one of my favorite books, the outsiders by S.E Hinton. you should read it sometime " "nothing gold can say", the way interpreted it is nothing can stay perfect; pure."

"this is perfect?"

"I love this kind of day in September. too bad I'm too fucked up to see it"

"you aren't"

"I am" I climbed back into my room and went down stairs. I forced my self to eat some kind of food then walked into the living room where Ronnie was sitting on the couch watching willow play with her toys. the door bell rang and I opened the door to see crissy.

"I'm assuming you are here to collect the baby?"

"yes"

I turned around and went into the living room, hitting the back of Ronnie's head in the process.

"ow! what was that for?"

"I just feel like being a bitch today, get your head out of your ass"

"excuse me?"

"you are excused" I walked over to willow and picked her up off the ground, grabbed her Sippy cup and diaper bag then walked back to the front door where willow smiled when she saw crissy standing outside on the porch. crissy held her arms out and smiled when I opened the door.

"hi princess!" she said excitedly as willow basically jumped from my arms to crissy's.

"thank you reya but I need to speak to Ronnie for a moment can you send him to the door or may I come in?"

"you can come in" I said and stepped aside from the door. I ran upstairs where I left Jacky, he  was sitting on my bed looking at my pictures.

"who said you could look at those?" I asked him, trying make it sound like a joke but it came out like I was completely bitching at him.

"uh sorry..." he said and closed the photo album.

"no it's fine, I don't know why that came out bitchy"

"your new nick name is eeyore"

"that isn't nice, but I agree I sound and look oddly like eeyore"

I tuned on my ihome and "stay from my friends" by pierce the veil came on. Jacky laid back on my bed and I sat on the floor with my sketchbook, drawing pictures of fall; well outside.

I was quickly disinterested in my sketchbook and laid back on the floor, staring at the ceiling. when I said I never imagined things could get better, I should have seen this coming.

A tear slipped out of my eye then I started to full on cry, silently.

( reya's song)

"why cant the world reduce all the dissatisfaction in me. if it has the flame has already burned out I wont see. I believe.

the sun has fallen from the sky lacing the time with stars to be

falling glass shattering the streets with us, you and me

cant talk the worlds got my tongue caught between its finger tips

trees fall just like the tears from my eyes every day 

we cant find our own way out of here

listen closely

to the shattering streets and the minds of the soldiers on earth

you and me-e-e-e" ( there would be more but I'm WAY too lazy to come up with more lyrics off the top of my head. BY THE WAY, THEY ARE MINE AND I DONT APPREACIATE YOU STEALING THEM! IF YOU WANT TO USE THEM, ASK ME FIRST AND DONT EVEN THINK ABOUT IF YOU ARE GOING TO SAY THAT THEY ARE YOURS!!!)