Bea's POV
I missed her.. I know I missed her because I've been actively trying to think about anything but her for the last hour. Who am I kidding? The last month. I've unfollowed her on Facebook. Deleted her number. Erased her existence in my life. But here I am still missing her. Still hoping that her number lights up my phone and I feel my heart swell because she wants to talk to me. But it's never going to be the same. It's never going to be the same...
"Hay Bea. How can you be so selfish thinking about your brother's fiance. She belongs to him now, stop thinking about her!"
I'm scolding myself as of the moment.
I heard a knock on my door.
"Anak? Are you still awake? Do you want to talk about something? That was my dad.
"Oh, yes dad I can't sleep pa naman eh. Come in." I answered.
He eventually got in and sat on my bed.
"Alam ko na. Don't try to deny about it. The moment I saw her with Marci, I knew she was your reason for leaving."
My dad was indeed my hero, Not just any other hero. He's MY SUPERMAN. He knows and understand everything about me even if I don't say a word.
I just smiled.
"Would you mind telling me about it? I made my night free just to talk to you. C'mon let's go to the veranda, it's so much better outside than here. Plus you can inhale all the air you want."
He told me then he went out.
I followed him at the usual spot where we used to be, back when I was younger.
"Where do you actually want me to start dad?" I asked him.
"The moment you left and gave her up anak."
I looked at my dad, looked away again to the empty sky and started.
"I gave her up because I believed Marci deserves her more than I do. You know what it feels like dad? I felt guilty the moment I knew he was inlove with her. I don't wanna take away the only thing that makes my brother happy. I got everything thru you and mom and kuya. I've got a family who's gonna see me grow up and he didn't. I had you and he didn't. I had everything this life has to offer and he didn't. She was the only one he could ever asked for, I don't wanna snatch another thing from him. I don't wanna take away his only source of happiness. As crazy as it may seem but, I believe there are some things in life that giving up would be the very best option to do. It's not because you have no other choices; it's because it is the best thing to choose."
Dad looked at me as I continue.
"I knew the moment I gave her up that this is going to hurt like hell each and everytime, But for my brothers happiness, maybe it's worth suffering for."
I just felt tears rolling down my cheeks. I tried not to mind them but my dad wiped them away. Dad hugged me and for the very first time, I exploded into tears.
"I love her so much dad.. I love her so so much."
😭😭😭
"Let it all out anak, Dad's not going to leave you until you feel better, ok? I love you anak, you made me proud. I'm not saying you've made the best decision, but the way you think about everyone else around you before coming up with that decision is something I must be proud of. Hindi ako nagkamali, anak nga kita."
With that statement, I managed to smile a little and threw my dad the ugliest face I can. He laughed.
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