Bea's POV
I'm really not sure what time is it but I really can't sleep.
My brain wants to think of something. well, of someone maybe, but it's not sure if it's worth the thought.
I already finished the book that I'm reading a while ago. Usually I get sleepy after reading, but tonight was different.
I got up, decided to go out and walk.
The sea was so calm while the night is so dark.
Same as my feeling for her.
Calm so that it won't go out.
and dark cause it can never be seen.
As I was walking, I saw her.. sitting on the sand, looking at the sea, maybe thinking about something.
I slowly walked towards her. She's always like this, when she thinks, she's not aware of what's happening anymore.
I sat down even more slowly then asked her.
"You can't sleep too?"
She was a bit surprised when I spoke. I saw that when she looked my way.
I focused my eyes on the sea once more.
When she did not bother answering my question, I stood up and decided to walk away.
Jho - "Ano Bea? Hindi mo man lang aantayin yung sasabihin ko? Aalis ka nanaman ng walang pasabi?"
It was a bit off I swear.
I looked at her and said.
"Goodnight, Jho."
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Jho's POV
"Goodnight, Jho"
Yan lang ang sasabihin nya?
Tumayo ako at sumigaw.
"Sige! Iwan mo nako! Tutal dyan ka naman magaling dba? Yan lang ng alam mo!"
Lumingon cya.
Umiyak nako.
"PUTANG INA NAMAN BEA!" ganyan kaba talaga? Ikaw ba yan? Kasi hindi ganyan yung Bea na kilala ko eh, Hindi nya kasi ako matitiis na makitang nasasaktan eh!"
sa sobrang pag-iyak ko, napaluhod na ako. Nararamdaman ko ng nanghihina ako. tinakpan ko ng dalawang kamay ang mukha ko sa sobrang pag-iyak. Sobrang sakit narin kasi.
Bea - "Jho..."
Jho - "OO! buti naman kilala mo pa pala ako! Kase putangina akala ko hindi na eh, at wag kang magpaliwanag. Wala kang karapatan, ako lang. Ako lang ang magsasalita, dahil ikaw, nagkaron ka ng pagkakataon eh, sumulat, tumawag, magtxt, ano pa?? lahat na ng pagkakataon nasayo, pero ano? nagpaliwanag ka? nagsabi ka? tumawag ka? BEA HINDI DIBA? HINAYAAN MONG MAGMUKHA AKONG TANGA! kaya ngayon ako lang ang magsasalita. Pakinggan mo ako, pakinggan mo yung taong minahal ka ng paulit ulit, pero sinaktan at iniwan mo ng DALAWANG BESES! DALAWANG BESES BEA!"
Lumuhod narin si Bea sa harap ko.
Niyakap nya ako. Pero hindi cya nagsalita.
"Bakit Bea?"
Inalis nya yung pagkakayakap nya saakin at tinignan ako.
"If it hurts you, It hurts me too, BIGTIME, Jho. I know you can't forgive me and I'm not asking you to. I can't forgive myself too."
Umiiyak narin cya.
[I really encourage every reader to play the song at the media below, swear di kayo magsisisi. It really suits well on this part of the story]
Sad Song
You and I, we're like fireworks and symphonies exploding in the sky
With you, I'm alive
Like all the missing pieces of my heart, they finally collide
So stop time right here in the moonlight
'Cause I don't ever wanna close my eyes
Without you, I feel broke
Like I'm half of a whole
Without you, I've got no hand to hold
Without you, I feel torn
Like a sail in a storm
Without you, I'm just a sad song
I'm just a sad song
With you, I fall
It's like I'm leaving all my past and silhouettes up on the wall
With you, I'm a beautiful mess
It's like we're standing hand and hand with all our fears up on the edge
So stop time right here in the moonlight
'Cause I don't ever wanna close my eyes
Without you, I feel broke
Like I'm half of a whole
Without you, I've got no hand to hold
Without you, I feel torn
Like a sail in a storm
Without you, I'm just a sad song
You're the perfect melody
The only harmony I wanna hear
You're my favourite part of me
With you standing next to me
I've got nothing to fear
Without you, I feel broke
Like I'm half of a whole
Without you, I've got no hand to hold
Without you, I feel torn
Like a sail in a storm
Without you, I'm just a sad song
Without you, I feel broke
Like I'm half of a whole
Without you, I've got no hand to hold
Without you, I feel torn
Like a sail in a storm
Without you, I'm just a sad song, I'm just a sad song.
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Sinong excited sa chapter 19?
What will happen kaya ngayong nailabas na ni Jho lahat ng galit nya kay Bea?
Masasabi na kaya ni Bea ang dahilan nya?
O pipiliin nya uling lumayo para kay Marci?
I'll be reading comments tonight so please do leave one :)
enjoy!
- jerseyniBDL
