TenRose One-Shots/ Doctor X-Reader (REQUESTS OPEN)

Pink and Yellow Human

Hi guys this is probably gonna be really shite so please bear with me.

Doctor's POV;

We were holding on to the clamps keeping us in her reality, and doing brilliantly, when one of the levers went offline. Rose moved to put it back. In my mind, I was screaming at her to stop, but I couldn't say anything. It was as of my voice had run away. Then, she started to slip. I watched in horror as each finger unwillingly let go of the handle.

"Rose! Hold on!" I screamed at her, extending my arm to her. I knew it would do no good, but I still did it. Then, her hands let go.

"Rose!" I screamed, willing what I was seeing to be some type of cruel illusion. I had no luck. Before she fell into the void, Pete rescued her. Rose and I shared one last moment where we could look at each other, and we did. In her eyes, I saw love and fear. Her eyes seemed to say "I'm sorry." Sorry? It was completely my fault.

Now I'm awake. I realize what happened was a dream, but it had also happened. I put on my robe and went to Rose's room. I knocked on her door, hoping for it to be opened by her. I had no such luck. Instead I was greeted by the emptiness of her room without her. I slowly walked over to her bed, and touched the material. I crawled in under the covers. I realized that her bed still smelled like her, and then the tears came. I grabbed a spare pillow and clutched it tight to me as if it were her. It smelled of her, and it was driving me mad. My hearts felt like they were being crushed, they hurt so much. All I could think about was her being there with me and telling me I was alright and that she was there. I knew she'd never come back. I cried for hours for my lost companion, but even harder for my lost love. Sometime in that terrible night I put myself in a coma so I could sleep, and I had no nightmares. I woke up the next morning feeling the same as I did when I put myself in my coma; mentally tired, in pain, and ultimate regret. Regret for not telling her I loved her. Regret for not holding her closer. Regret for not showing her everything. Regret for not saving her from that parallel planet. Regret for not giving her that forever she so longed for. Regret for countless other things. I walked out of her room and went tithe console room. I saw Donna sitting in the chair.

"Oi! Spaceman! Where you been? You were supposed to be out here an hour ago!" She nearly yelled.

"Sorry." I said quietly. Her entire attitude quickly changed from anger to kindness.

"Doctor? What's wrong? What's happened?" She asks me, forcing me to sit on the jump seat next to her.

"Nothing is wrong, Donna." I told her, trying to sit up. She held me down.

"No. You fell asleep crying last night, I can tell. I see those same circles and puffiness under my eyes nearly every morning so I know what it looks like. Now tell me what's happened." She said in a stern but kind voice.

"I miss her, Donna." I said, rubbing my hand over my face.

"Who?" She quietly asked, sensing the sensitivity of the question.

"Rose." I told her, barley able to choke out her name.

"I loved her, Donna. I still do. I miss her terribly and I want to hold her close and tell her how much I love her and how important she is and I-I can't anymore. I had my chance and I lost it." I attempted to keep myself together, but at the second word all my tears came flooding out and I battled to control my voice. I felt Donna wrap her arm around me and pull my now shaking body into a sideways hug. She held me as I cried for Rose, the most amazing person I'd ever met in all my lives. Eventually, Donna spoke up.

"Look, Doctor. She's alright yeah? That's good. But I know you. Doctor, when you want something, you fight for it, and you don't stop until you have it. You'll get her back, I know you will. And when you do, you can hold her and do all those things that you wanted to do with her for as long as you like." She told me, gently rubbing my back with her hand. I pulled away from the sideways hug to give her a proper one.

"Thank you." I whispered in her ear. Suddenly, there was a crackle from the TARDIS screen. I wheeled around and looked. Rose. Her face was on the screen, and she kept saying my name, well, the name that everybody knows me by. Then the sound kicked in.

"Doctor! Are you alright? You look like you've been crying...." She said as her smile fell and her hand went up on the screen. I placed my hand over hers. 

"I've just been letting a few tears loose for you, love." I said, smiling a smile so big I thought my face would split in half. Then the image started to go out.

"Rose." I said quickly.

"Yes, Doctor?" She hurriedly replied.

"I'm coming for you." And with that the image cut out. I'm still looking for her. But now, I know she's out there and looking for me as well, and I won't stop until I find her, my Pink and Yellow Human.