I'll Be There For You [Destiel]

Secrets Should Stay Quiet

I picked up my phone from the table beside the hospital bed and dialed Madisyn's number.

"What do you want." She said with anger. She was still angry at me for last night.

"I just wanted to say I was in the hospital. Got hit by a car. That's all. I'll get out of your hair now since you don't care." I said, trying to make her feel guilty. I heard a slight gasp.

"W.. What happened..?" She asked, trying not to sound concerned.

"I wasn't paying attention.." I lied, I couldn't tell her the truth, it would crush her.

"I'll visit you if you want.." She sighed.

"That'd be great."

-----*Madisyn's POV*-----

I put my phone in my back pocket and stood up.

"Hey dad, Cas is in the hospital. Can you bring me to see him..?" I asked nervously. I knew he was going to yell at  me for wanting to go see the "disgrace" but I didn't care, he was my brother no matter how much he makes me hate him. He glared over at me.

"Why's he there, couldn't take not being with Dean?" He snickered, making fun of him. I clenched my fist and tried my best to conceal my anger.

"No! He was walking and wasn't paying attention!" I tried not to yell. He laughed. "What's so funny about your son getting hit by a car!?"

"The hospital's not that far away, walk. I don't want to see that disgrace of a boy." He looked back to the tv and took a sip of his beer. How can a father be so rude?! He doesn't care about the fact that his only son.. Well.. His only living son is hurt and is in the hospital. I looked down and walked out, heading towards the hospital. I could feel the tears prickle in my eyes but I didn't care, I let them fall. I didn't want to lose my other brother too. I didn't even ask if he was okay or how he was feeling. I thought back to the day I found out that my mother and brother died. I was only eight.

*flashback*

"Madisyn, grab your stuff, your mom and brothers are at the hospital." My dad said, sounding hurt.

"Why what happened?!" I said, tears in my eyes. Nothing is supposed to happen to them, my family is invincible.

"Car accident." My dad said, getting into our other car. We had two due to the fact that my mom and dad both had jobs and almost same hours but at a different place. I got in the back and buckled up as we drove towards the hospital. We got there and got out and speed walked toward the emergency room doors.

"Hello, how may I assist you?" The receptionist asked.

"Novak family, my wife and two sons were in an accident." My dad said. The lady looked down.

"I'm sorry.. Your wife and one of your sons was killed from the crash. I'm so sorry." My dad's eyes widened but he didn't cry. The tears pooled out of my eyes as I asked why they had to go. The receptionist led us to the room where we were going to find out which one of my brother's lived. I pushed the door open and looked towards the bed. Cas. He looked horrible, gashes all over his face and a cast on his arm and leg.

"Why couldn't it be your brother who lived, I didn't want you." My dad said, angrily and walked out. I could feel anger and sadness towards my dad but I didn't care, Cas was alive, at least he made it, I wish mom and Gabe did too.

"How are you feeling..?" I said between sobs.

"Not.. good." Cas said with trouble. I walked towards him and ran my hand down his face and smiled.

*end of flashback*

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I thought back to last night.. To when I kissed Castiel. I wasn't that drunk so I knew what I was doing but something in my head said don't do it but my body just went with it. Cas didn't like it at first but once I said please, he went along with it. Something couldn't bring me to stop. My mind was yelling to stop, to not make the same mistake I made before.. I looked down, remembering what I did. I had a few guys over and we were young, about 13.. Maybe 14 and we were being stupid and playing hide and seek in my dad's house while Sam was sleeping. I was the seeker. I found my friend, Toby first. Toby stood up the match his height to mine and leaned in. I didn't know that kissing guys was wrong to my dad or anyone so I leaned in to him. Eventually, we were full blown making out and my dad walked into the living room. He was screaming and called me disgusting and a disgrace and woke up Sam with his yells. He made everyone go home and once they were gone, he hit me, right in the face. Gave me a shiner. I then made a vow with myself that 'd never do it again because I didn't want to hurt my father and make him dissapointed.

"I'm a disapointment." I said to myself, letting the tears fall out of my eyes.