When You Go, Just Know That I Will Remember You
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CHAPTER THREE
Alicia's POV
The room feels empty, even though everyone is here. Frank and Jamia sat on one of the couches, Gee and LynZ sat on the piano bench. The kids were at Frank's mom's house. Mikey and I sat on the other couch, with Ray sitting at one end. He's just staring at the ground, lost in his thoughts. Nobody is talking. No one wants to break the silence. Everyone is afraid to move, afraid to leave Ray alone. Christa may not have been living with us, but you can just feel the space where she would have been.
Knowing Jamia and LynZ, like me, they want their husbands to hold them and make it go away, but none of us will acknowledge eachother in fear of hurting Ray more.
"We need to go to the funeral home" Ray said quietly, making everyone jump at the sound of his voice. He looked up and met each of our eyes. "Christa wouldn't have wanted us to sit here moping. She would've wanted us to take care of things, remember her, and move on" he said, his voice cracking on the words 'move on'. Everyone nodded and stood up. We all wrapped our arms around him in a big group hug. "It's okay to cry Ray" Jamia whispered. "I know" he mumbled. "But I need to be strong. I swear I heard her whisper that to me when we went in to see her." Everyone just nodded, clearly not knowing what to say, but believing every word.
We all got ready to go, our motions slow in our grief. Everyone took their seperate cars. Ray came with us. I sat in the back with him again, while Mikey drove.
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Ray picked out a beautiful oak casket for Christa, and a matching miniature one for Sasha. He chose sweet smelling red and white roses to decorate the room. It would be closed casket viewing, understandably.
He's doing so well. He hasn't cried once since we left the hospital. He keeps saying "I need to be strong because it's what Christa told me to do." I think everyone's hearts break in to a million little peices every time he says that.
Everyone is going to stay with us tonight. We all need to be a family right now. We picked up KFC on the way home. Ray said he really wants to watch his wedding video, so that's what we're going to do.
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Hey guys! It will get happier soon! I just need to get past Christa dying first. Thanks for reading!
-Cass
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When You Go, Just Know That I Will Remember You
FanfictionScenario #2 continuing from I Don't Love You. The title is from It's Not A Fashion Statement.
