But Loved

Bonus Chapter 1

> I wasn't going to do a POV in Shannon's view because she's based off of a real person but I just thought that hey it's a short chapter and it gets the point through. Plus Shannon would absolutely say all of this I know that for sure.
So yah here's a little surprise bonus chapter for y'all! Hope you like my double update<

Shannon's Prov
2014, Two days before New Years
(So pretty much it's been almost two years since Ashton and Amethyst talked and Shannon is in college so you all know)

I'm really excited. I have my little picnic basket in my trunk and a few blankets. Maybe some condoms but who knows. *wink* I start the car and quickly drive off canvas. It's really early and I need to be extremely quiet or I'll wake up everyone who just got home from partying an hour ago. I've done that before and it's horrible.

I decided that I have a boyfriend and I really what to go see him. So, I'm taking the really long drive up to his dorm so I can surprise him. I hope he's not busy. Eh, when is he ever busy?

The drive up north was horrible. There was so much traffic when I came to like seven am. We need bigger roads. Okay no we don't. We need less people. People suck anyways.

Halfway there I get extremely bored listening to the same like ten maybe 15 songs in the radio and call Amethyst. She answers quickly. I hope she's not working or something. Oh wait nah it's winter break for them.

"Shannon?" She answers.

"Hey!" I beam.

"Hey how's it goin'?" Amethyst asks me.

"Really good. I'm actually heading up to see Alex now," I tell her smiling.

"Oh yah?" She asks. "When did you meet? New Years? So it'll be two years in two days," she announces.

"Yup!" I agree, "I'm surprising him up at the dorms."

"Don't you have a winter break?" She asks.

"Yes we do its just my family is in New Hampshire and I'd rather not drive 18 hours to get there so I just stay at the dorms. They don't care," I shrug, "plus Alex never leaves the dorms he was adopted remember. He's by himself. I think he's glad he won't have to deal with his 'parents.'"

"Are his parents really that bad?" Amethyst asks.

"Yes I met them," I tell her shivering just by the thought, "his father was so close to throwing a bottle. I could feel it in his Ora."

"You're so weird," she laughs. "How far away are you?"

"Another two hours I think. I'm not sure," I say turning into the next exit.

"Okay we'll be safe," Amethyst asks, "you must be tired from leaving so early."

"Oh yah I'm definitely tired, but he's worth it," I boast.

"I hope so," she mumbles making me frown. "Well I got to go. I'll call you soon yah?"

"Yah. Sounds great," I say already ready to hang up the phone.

Listen Amethyst is absolutely amazing. She's a great girl, very fun to be around when she's happy but she gets annoying. I mean not a lot that I can't stand her but she just always sees the worst. I'm not sure if it's the "extreme depression" thing she has but it bums me out a lot. She's the best friend I can ever have but she's a bit of a party pooper. I know I can't blame her and that's why I stick with her through it but seriously I was happy. Now I have to get super happy again. Eh, I'll just put on some Little Mix or something.

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Finally, I got to the stupid dorms. There's so many buildings that you have to really have a keen eyesight to see all the signs. I however do not. So that added on like thirty minutes to the ride. Damn it. What ever I got here alive. Now, I really just want to go cuddle my boyfriend and eat some food.

It doesn't take long for me to find his actually room which is very surprising. My smiles big and I'm ready to go see my amazing, wonderful, beautiful, faithf-

"What the hell!" I exclaim opening the door to see some blonde chic dry humping my boyfriend.

They pull apart and find some of their clothes as I stay angry by the door. You have to be kidding me. Amethyst fucking predicts the future doesn't she? The blonde is in a corner unsure of what to do while Alex is trying to think of something clever to say. I turn to the stupid blonde and glare.

"Well? Go on!" I exclaim, "do you actually think standing there is going I help my mood? Leave before I throw you out of the window!"

She scurries past me like a silly little mouse. I hate mice. I turn to Alex who's scratching his neck. I'm just completely shocked. He always seemed so sweet and loving. I don't understand this.

"I wanted to surprise you, you know?" I start noticing he wasn't going to start, "I was all happy and excited to see my boyfriend since it had been a long time but nope. I drove up here to find him dry humping a whore."

"She's not a whore," he mumbles making my eyebrows raise.

"Yah 'cause that's helping your case. Good job," I say rolling my eyes. "Do you have anything else to say to me?"

"I'm really sorry," he starts making me cross my arms and roll my eyes again, "it's just I hadn't seen you in awhile and I have needs. When a pretty girl says yes to helping I said yes too."

"You little shit," I spit out. "Do you actually think that was your problem? I have needs too. I had plenty of chances to cheat on you but no I'm a good person and have self control!"

"If you didn't live so far away...."

"Stop!" I practically yell, "I'm not going to let you turn this all on me! How dare you try to make me feel guilty when you're the one who lost control! How dare you try to pull a fast one on me and make me feel even worse than I fell right now! I am not the reason this happened love. You are. You're the one that cheated. In the one that drove hours to go see her boyfriend that she thought loved her like she loved him. Apparently not!"

"I do love you!" He lies.

"Quit with your bull shit!" I snap, "that's complete and utter bull shit! If you really loved me you'd find a way to stay satisfied with just me. That means no hook ups, Alex!"

"Fine then just leave," he says bluntly.

"You know I was really happy. I was smiling. I was going to cuddle my amazing boyfriend who I thought the he was my world but no I make this trip to be an awesome girlfriend and find this," I say shaking my head, "you're and ass, Alex."

I walk out the door without tears. I will never waist my breath on him again. Did he really try to pull the rug from out of under me? I can't believe him. And I dated him for almost two years. How many times has he cheated?

No tears!

Yah no tears. He never deserved me or my tears. He's never getting them.

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